Justice suicide or what else?

So I’ve gone back through old post and this is what I don’t get. As I understand it your current physical I’ll health was due to a car accident. No direct conections to any court case. Yet you claim it was linked. That car could have hit you on any day, it just happened to coincide with the case.

if I were you I’d be more upset about my health than reputation. And surely that would be a better place to concentrate your energy? Campaign for road safety or improved availability and research of regenerative medicine. 

Charity work raising awareness that experimental therapies that could help people like you exist but aren’t being pursued because of cost and lack of a profit margin. That would benefit both you and others.

The car accident was when I was cycling at speed in a peloton and occurred as I couldn’t do this safety with the court case in a few days later

I’m sure it wouldn’t have happened without the worry of the case

Dave, I'm confused. Your blaming them for your accident. Were you forced to be in a cycle race, or did you choose it for yourself?

I understand the tunnel vision, I've had it many times myself. I learned over time that you can't just walk away from it and everything is fine, you have to chip away at it until your far enough away that it's not so painful.

Moving forward is not about just ignoring what has happened, you need to take the time to understand the experience and learn from it. Start the process of backing away from it. I find that when I begin to think about things that bother me, it's best to take a step back, and see what has triggered the feeling. Perhaps something has set me off? It might be something completely different which can easily be solved.

Start with this accident. It's not a part of the legal case whichever way you try and spin it. It was an act of chance that happened at a time when you were dealing with something far more challenging. Accept it, then go off and do something you enjoy. Just deal with one thing at a time.

You said you feel you've let your family down? I suspect your family has probably had enough of it. I'm sure they would prefer to have you enjoying yourself rather than dwelling on the painful past.

I feel I’ve really let my family down. This was MY reaction to the distress yes, but how do o let go of thoughts? That’s a big problem for Asd and I suspect why we have high suicide rates 

The point Dave, is that it's not a correlation that you can make in court. Your accident may never have happened. You could have never had the court case, and still had the accident. Who knows? You chose to go out on the road, and when an accident occurred, you decided it was someone else's fault, all because you weren't clear headed and made a mistake.

If we all made accusations based on all the things that go wrong in our lives, every time we deal with something difficult, we'd all be in jail right now because someone would have an issue with us. Your holding on to this thing so tightly but you aren't seeing it for what it is. You have to let it go.

Pleased you recognise that distress can cause accidents.

I have ridden like that for 40 years 3 times per week and it had never happened before . I am sure that the distress of prosecution was a major reason

Even so, you made the choice to go out on the road on a push bike. They did not force you to go out on your bike, they didn't send someone out to run you down. You could have done many other things to clear your head. They are not responsible for your accident and would therefore not bring it up in your defence. I suffered two motorcycle accidents in two months. I had never had an accident before that time. When it happened, I was dealing with major issues with my managers at work. But they weren't the ones on the bike, nore were they the ones in the cars that hit me. You can't put two unrelated things together and use it to blame others for your accident. 

It was not a race, just a training ride in a peloton to try and clear my head before my trial. My concentration was not good enough to ride at speed in a peloton as I was worried about my trial. Never had such an accident ever in 30;years of peloton cycling.

It was not a race, just a training ride in a peloton to try and clear my head before my trial. My concentration was not good enough to ride at speed in a peloton as I was worried about my trial. Never had such an accident ever in 30;years of peloton cycling.

I understand the tunnel vision, I've had it many times myself. I learned over time that you can't just walk away from it and everything is fine, you have to chip away at it until your far enough away that it's not so painful.

Moving forward is not about just ignoring what has happened, you need to take the time to understand the experience and learn from it. Start the process of backing away from it. I find that when I begin to think about things that bother me, it's best to take a step back, and see what has triggered the feeling. Perhaps something has set me off? It might be something completely different which can easily be solved.

Start with this accident. It's not a part of the legal case whichever way you try and spin it. It was an act of chance that happened at a time when you were dealing with something far more challenging. Accept it, then go off and do something you enjoy. Just deal with one thing at a time.

You said you feel you've let your family down? I suspect your family has probably had enough of it. I'm sure they would prefer to have you enjoying yourself rather than dwelling on the painful past.

I feel I’ve really let my family down. This was MY reaction to the distress yes, but how do o let go of thoughts? That’s a big problem for Asd and I suspect why we have high suicide rates 

The point Dave, is that it's not a correlation that you can make in court. Your accident may never have happened. You could have never had the court case, and still had the accident. Who knows? You chose to go out on the road, and when an accident occurred, you decided it was someone else's fault, all because you weren't clear headed and made a mistake.

If we all made accusations based on all the things that go wrong in our lives, every time we deal with something difficult, we'd all be in jail right now because someone would have an issue with us. Your holding on to this thing so tightly but you aren't seeing it for what it is. You have to let it go.

Pleased you recognise that distress can cause accidents.

I have ridden like that for 40 years 3 times per week and it had never happened before . I am sure that the distress of prosecution was a major reason

Even so, you made the choice to go out on the road on a push bike. They did not force you to go out on your bike, they didn't send someone out to run you down. You could have done many other things to clear your head. They are not responsible for your accident and would therefore not bring it up in your defence. I suffered two motorcycle accidents in two months. I had never had an accident before that time. When it happened, I was dealing with major issues with my managers at work. But they weren't the ones on the bike, nore were they the ones in the cars that hit me. You can't put two unrelated things together and use it to blame others for your accident.