No one gives a damn about me

How awful Roswell. I am really sorry you have suffered these things.

You make some good points. I am trying to just look at positives now. I am not someone who can exercise much, I don't have the body to do it, but I did a very small jog today instead of drinking alcohol. So first booze free day in 2 weeks. 

I eat big meals full of flavour to sort of anaesthetise me and sedate me. 

Just because things are challenging in this moment doesn't mean they will be forever. Bad times pass.

Good!

Thanks.

I will look into seeing a private therapist but know from having had NHS therapists they haven't helped me. As for being combative, I have noticed here that other people get more responses than me, and I get ignored a lot. 

Sometimes people are combative, sometimes that's part of how things go, otherwise they'd get walked all over.

I have a social worker. They have put me on a waiting list to be adopted into a shared lives family, and have given me a personal budget to employ a carer. Beyond that, they won't do anything else. I've asked them. 

I do :) 

You can be as upset as you want to be towards those individuals who have abused you and done those bad things towards you, and that is understandable. But what is not is if you apply those same bad perceptions and project them towards every single person you encounter, because you won't really get to know anyone if you do that. You'll just see everyone as enemies everywhere you go. How would you get the support you need if you're in a combative mode all the time? This combative nature might be a coping mechanism to protect yourself, but it's not going to be helpful for attracting the support you need in your life. 

Also, many people will not be able to handle the gravity of other people's trauma, and even if you tell them a bad thing that happened, they won't know what to say, they'll blank out, they won't want to say the wrong thing, give you the wrong advice, or (like you've experienced) they will not care about it, which will be hurtful and adds towards the trauma. They're not trained on how to handle people who's gone through trauma. That's why there's therapists and psychologists, who make it their job and mission in life to study these kinds of things, in order to help people with what they know, and maybe it could be beneficial if you talked to a professional about your trauma.

Still trying to give a mega damn

Samaritans are just a listening service. No advice or help and they often hang up on me.

they are volunteers who enjoy volunteering. I begin to think that Samaritans is to give the volunteers a feeling of purpose, but it is not to help,prevent suicide.

You're not the only one who has experienced this and you're certainly not going to be the last. Going on a forum like this is not going to result in the help you need. No one on this forum can do the work for you and engage with the organization and support on your behalf it's down to you to make thing better for yourself and arrange the support for yourself. If you are really struggling to look after yourself and make positive decisions for yourself then call up your local authority and request a Needs Assessment so they can carry out a needs assessment and arrange one to one support and signpost you organisations that can actually help you.

Now if you want you can now explain your post a bit better and maybe someone on this community page who is going through similar or the same situation can help you work out and find a solution and suggest you an organisation that will actually result in the support you want. 

1. We are your friends, and we care about how you feel.

I call the Samaritans a few times and they goaded me and made fun of me.

Hi Roswell. I'm back and I hope it's okay for me to post. I give a damn about you. But as you know, sometimes I say the wrong things, so I'm not sure if you will believe me. I wish I knew exactly what to say to make things better, but I have trouble with that. Take care of yourself and reply if you want to chat. But I understand if you would prefer not to.

Hi Rosewell, I am sorry others are not sympathetic. I'm starting to see what you mean. You said in one reply how charities abuse you when you ring. May I ask what is going on with that?  I understand the part about having no friends but confused about the abuse you get from charities when you ring up?  Any chance you could elaborate on that so I can understand better what you mean? 

I have no friensds .whereneve I call charities they abuse me.

i don't give a damn. no, empathy isn't my highpoint. if it were, i'd be on the website empatheticasallgitout.

but i ain't and i'm not.

Well I do give a mega damn. Bought your book and hope to be able to support. Whatever that means. 
But once we aspires get on a self critical victim thinking it is very difficult