Feeling self conscious about my Autism

Don't worry - I get overwhelmed by my weirdness too :) I often walk away from a situation and think, why did I say that?

In my opinion, if you're taking care of the kids and giving them valuable life experience, it doesn't matter if the parents don't really get you. Their behaviours probably don't make much sense to you either :)

Most of the time I’m oblivious enough to not really care too much what others may or may not think of me. I think I’ve been burning the candle at both ends a bit recently which has probably made me a bit extra sensitive. I’m also slightly less able to mask when I’m over tired and sadly I do need to mask in certain situations.

One of the mum’s in particular, I asked her how she was, just being polite and then I looked away and I could see her watching me waiting for me to look at her again before she would continue the conversation. I had to be polite and look back but I just really wasn’t in the mood for doing even modulated eye contact, it was just uncomfortable. I know most people expect eye contact during conversation but sometimes I’d really rather not!

I can relate to that. It sounds like it might be time for a rest! Are you able to put some time aside this week to have some quiet time to yourself?

If it makes you feel any better, that mum probably walked away from the conversation and hasn't given it a second thought since. I think we just tend to replay things in our heads because we're so conscious about how we're coming across.

Nice work

Well I managed the good sleep thing, only just woke up at 10:30  

That sounds like a good idea to me. Haha, maybe they're due for a sleepover with some relatives?

I'm sure it is. Try not to give yourself a hard time about it.

I’m going to try to have a few relatively early nights as catching up on sleep usually helps me to level out. Quiet time is a luxury that I don’t have, my 3 children ensure that! 

You’re right. It is probably long gone from the mum’s head. I think that because I’m over tired I’m just over thinking things more.

I’m going to try to have a few relatively early nights as catching up on sleep usually helps me to level out. Quiet time is a luxury that I don’t have, my 3 children ensure that! 

You’re right. It is probably long gone from the mum’s head. I think that because I’m over tired I’m just over thinking things more.

Nice work

Well I managed the good sleep thing, only just woke up at 10:30  

That sounds like a good idea to me. Haha, maybe they're due for a sleepover with some relatives?

I'm sure it is. Try not to give yourself a hard time about it.