Feeling self conscious about my Autism

Am I the only one who occasionally gets overwhelmed by my own weirdness?
I usually manage to bumble along, happy in my own little world. But tonight, I’ve run two lots of Beaver Scouts single handedly and did it well. I just feel very over conscious of how terrible my social skills are when I’m talking with the parents. I don’t respond ‘normally’ to what they say, I don’t pick up on social cues and I avoid eye contact. I’m just convinced that the parents all find me very odd!

Parents
  • Don't worry - I get overwhelmed by my weirdness too :) I often walk away from a situation and think, why did I say that?

    In my opinion, if you're taking care of the kids and giving them valuable life experience, it doesn't matter if the parents don't really get you. Their behaviours probably don't make much sense to you either :)

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  • Don't worry - I get overwhelmed by my weirdness too :) I often walk away from a situation and think, why did I say that?

    In my opinion, if you're taking care of the kids and giving them valuable life experience, it doesn't matter if the parents don't really get you. Their behaviours probably don't make much sense to you either :)

Children
  • Most of the time I’m oblivious enough to not really care too much what others may or may not think of me. I think I’ve been burning the candle at both ends a bit recently which has probably made me a bit extra sensitive. I’m also slightly less able to mask when I’m over tired and sadly I do need to mask in certain situations.

    One of the mum’s in particular, I asked her how she was, just being polite and then I looked away and I could see her watching me waiting for me to look at her again before she would continue the conversation. I had to be polite and look back but I just really wasn’t in the mood for doing even modulated eye contact, it was just uncomfortable. I know most people expect eye contact during conversation but sometimes I’d really rather not!