Published on 12, July, 2020
Like many other days I feel today I could have done so much more. The only thing of note I did today was make boiled brown rice and cabbage with toasted pecan nuts, served with freshly chopped parsley.
Otherwise I've done nothing memorable today. Didn't have the drive in me to read a book, watch a film, pick up the guitar and learn more - that's it.
Every single day.
Things that get me going are:
If guests are coming I will clean the house. Sometimes I purposely arrange a visit to get the house clean.
Telling myself to get off my a**e out loud
Making lists and picking some quick easy ones to start
I've always been in awe of people who "take care of business" and "get things done".
Weirdly, I was pretty good when I used to work, but that was a paid job.
Fraiselongue said:Weirdly, I was pretty good when I used to work, but that was a paid job.
I find that doing something for the benefit of someone else is always far, far easier than doing something to benefit myself, no matter who they are. I guess that partly it's because all of the decision making is taken out of my hands, so I don't get trapped in my usual procrastination. I don't suppose that my problems with self-esteem help too much, either.
I like having people visit too - it encourages me to clean! I have an odd form of OCD where I'm obsessed with wanting everything to be perfectly clean and tidy, but never have the time or energy to achieve it.
I clean my home before guests come as well. When I had a care worker to meet a couple of times a week I was a bit more motivated to do stuff. I find I want someone to talk to about stuff I've done, otherwise it feels unreal somehow.