Published on 12, July, 2020
I have extreme OCD, nervous tics in my body and facial expressions and eye contact, I'm shy, I've had depression and anxiety for quite some time, I'm physically weaker than most men and have a lot of food intolerances.
I don't seem to have achieved anything in 32 years. I've tried making friends and studying and failed consistently at both due to all of the aforementioned.
My dad and most my siblings don't like me. I've shown interest in dozens of women over the years and never had a reciprocal interest.
My only close friend who lives near me is my mother. What are people's thoughts? Is a life like this pointless?
Your life is not pointless! What do you think that you need to change so that your life feels more fulfilling?
I need a support worker. I can't cope with getting to know new people or interacting with people who aren't in my inner circle. The local Asperger's team discharged me even though my mum kept asking for help for me, and I asked too. My mum made a complaint against them and I've been told now that in about 3-4 weeks they'll do a care plan, but who knows what that will consist of in these days of cutbacks and threadbare services.
I placed an ad a while ago on supermarket notice boards trying to find one and no one replied.
Everything is so complicated!
Hopefully you will get a support worker from the care plan being done. Maybe between now and then make a list of things that you feel that you need help with and how a support worker could assist you to achieve them, so you're not caught off guard during the assessment?
It's probably not sensible to take on a support worker that you have found via an ad placed in a supermarket, you never know what type of person they might be!
Maybe also see your GP as they might be able to get a plan together to make things seem less complicated and signpost you to other services if necessary?
What are your hobbies? Could you engage in these to help to take your mind off of things?
You have a horrible neighbor and your father seems very frustrated to see you different, lack of eye contact, etc.
I'm okay and just surviving.
I have one neighbour who I'm scared of, he smokes cannabis and always wears hoodies and tracksuits. Drives a motorbike and when it has broke in the past has loudly shouted in the garden while fixing it. Also he has a dog and the way he talks to the dog bothers me. He reminds me of people who picked on me in school.
My dad constantly comes into whatever room I'm in to ask some pointless question, or to see where I am. He gets visibly irritated if I don't maintain constant eye contact while he talks to me and expects me to be 100% interested in whatever he's talking about like politics, and if he doesn't get his own way he can get in a foul mood and becomes scary.
I haven't seen my GP, will try to soon.
How are you doing by the way?