I've posted before under a NAS username and told myself I wouldnt post on here again until I chose a new username, then I couldn't decide what to call myself so I just didn't post. Sorry. I promise I'll contribute more now rather than just asking for support from you all all the time.
Having said that...here I am posting for support again! I have my assessment tomorrow and I'm getting very, very nervous. I've gone back and forth a lot over the past 3 years about whether I am autistic or not and I'm currently feeling that I am not and that I'm probably just a hypochondriac/drama queen who wishes neurodevelopmental disorders on herself.
I haven't done any prep work like sending in reams of info about myself, etc, even though I really wanted to, because I felt like it would just stress me out more. I've decided just to go along, answer the questions, do the tests and see what happens.
I'm sure a lot of you felt like this about your assessments? What did you do that helped? What helped calm any assessment anxieties?
Hello BabySpider. You went into detail about your username but then didn't detailed your inspiration about the one you chose! How did you settle on BabySpider? Did you see one? :)
I'm on the waiting list for assessment and like you worried some days about autism is destroying my life and then others where I felt like a fraud - I can;t possibly be autistic...
I am going down the route of writing about myself though. I've got a 13 page document to take with me at the moment and it's still growing! It's probably overkill but I freeze in the moment, I sometimes wonder whether I'll be able to talk at all. So even if I don't share my document, I can at least read it to get me talking and jog my mind. It'll be there as a comfort blanket more than anything.
I had my first assessment a few weeks ago. I think what actually happens at the first appointment can differ according to the practise you visit.
You only need to do what you have been asked to do at this point. If in doubt ring the administrator at your centre and double check what you need to bring. You might do screening tests or wade straight into a personal history interview.
I was not nervous. I was looking forward to it. But I came away confused and crushed. Either way there is nothing much you can do with one day to go but turn up and take the step. It can take a long time for some people to get their answers so try to relax now.
I wish you a good experience and do check the boards again as many people here have been or are going through similar.
Cloud - I couldn't think of a username so in the end I chose 2 random words and stuck them together!!
I completely understand where you're coming from with 'freezing in the moment', I do the same normally when I see my GP for anything but i had a pre-assessment for asd a couple of years ago and i was ok in that, so I'm hoping it will be the same tomorrow.
Hope you don't have too much longer to wait for assessment. Waiting seems to be the hardest bit imo.
Thanks for your reply Esmeralda. Why did you come away from your assessment feeling like that?
Someone from the assessment centre has already been through what I can expect from the day. The whole thing takes about 4 hours. I have to do some tests and then there will be an interview with the psychologist and at some point someone will interview my person who knew me as a child.
SpiderBaby said:Waiting seems to be the hardest bit imo
Definitely. And it's the fact you're waiting for an unknown period of time. My wait will be 6-9 months overall, I've waited nearly 2 months so far (on top of the time to even get to a referral). I'll feel better once I know the date. It's constantly on my mind adding to my list of worries...
All the best for tomorrow (I should have mentioned that before!!). Do let us know how you get on!
The whole thing eh. What a day you will have!
I didn't have a good experience with my assessor. I don't have enough experience to know if it was the process or the person that I couldn't get on with. I think I was being weeded out as a faker or hypochondriac, someone who could not possibly be ASD. It was demoralizing.
Hi There, Good luck for your assessment tomorrow!
I think it's probably quite normal to worry that you are nor really autistic and are just imagining it right before the assessment, I know I did. I think it's probably just part of the pre-assessment nerves. As long as you answer honestly then I'm sure you'll be fine.
I don't very often get nervous about things but I was really anxious prior to and during my assessment. I had two assessments on the same day, ADOS first then an appointment with the Psychiatrist to go through my previous medical and life history. I just about got through the ADOS ok but then had nearly an hour wait in between the two appointments. I just about managed to stave off having a full scale meltdown in the waiting room by doing breathing exercises and trying to distract myself by playing word crossy on my phone, I still ended up in floods of tears when I was in with the Psychiatrist though! My best advice would be to try to distract yourself between now and the assessment, if you are able to do so.
Oh I see. I'm not surprised you felt like that. My biggest worry is that they will think I'm a faker or making a big fuss out of nothing.
An hour wait is a long time! I know we'll have breaks tomorrow but I'm hoping not for that long! Although a full scale meltdown mid-assessment would be a very clear indicator of asd!!
I don't think anyone goes to an assessment without having fully considered the matter. You should be treated with respect as anyone requesting medical assistance deserves. Hope it is worth it for you.