Just sharing some of my on-going thoughts about who I am and how I can be kinder to myself. Partly because this forum has become a place for me to journal my observations so that I know where they all are, but also because I know that some people are finding my ramblings useful.
This is about the "Irrespective of the diagnosis ....." thread of thoughts.
What I've realised is that even if I don't get a DX for ASD, the things mentioned in my report about social communication and imagination are real, significant (at least to me) and persisting. They have been with me since childhood. Attempts that I've made to "address my weaknesses" (which is what I felt encouraged to do by the corporate work environment) led to anxiety, depression and burnout.
I've learned that I often need to escape from interaction, emotion, and noise. Intellectual pursuits, music, hobbies and solo fitness exercises are healthy ways to achieve this. I'm no longer drawn to unhealthy ways of achieving this and I think that's all down to the greater understanding of myself and, crucially, acceptance of myself in the face of societal / familial pressure.
So that's all positive :-)
When it was discovered in 1930 Pluto was classified as a planet...
In the late '90s and early '00s it was considered by many not to be a planet and 'demoted' to being a 'planetoid'...
In 2006 it was reclassified as the second largest of the 'dwarf planets'.
But you know what? Through all that its mass, atmosphere, composition, orbit and everything else about it didn't change...
My point is, irrespective of what 'label' is applied to a thing its properties remain the same and these are what make it what it is, not the label.
Where Pluto and I differ though, apart from one of us loving the solitude of interstellar space and the other being an icy world in the far reaches of the solar system, is that Pluto didn't have planet-sized stars shining brightly next to it and telling it he could shine too if he came out of his shell and stopped being silly and tried caring more about the stars :-)