Beginning of the end?

Whilst replying to a thread i created the other day i heard the flap of the letterbox thud as the post dropped through the door, i try not to be afraid of the post these days, the fear of those brown envelopes is consuming and soul destroying, so i carried on replying to a complex thread, mid reply i took a pause, made a cup of tea and retrieved the post; no brown envelope, phew, a slightly chunky white one though so i opened it and as i did i saw the logo of my letting agent. my first thought was oh its that time of year again, tenancy must be up for renewal.

How wrong was i?

It was a notice to vacate my home for the past 10 years. A 'No fault eviction'. I quickly finished the reply, posted it and broke down. I spent most of my 20s homeless and living on the streets, i can't do it again at 42, i just can't.

I havn't recovered and i dont think i will. This is the time this evil tory government will introduce me to my very own cliff edge, fly lil birdie, fly.

I've been undergoing the fake 'needs assesment' process with social services and an advocate for the past year at least, i know i wont get any help from them, i will be forced onto the streets whilst they overlook the process fully aware that i have no family in the area (i live 150 miles from 'home' and not by choice, corrupt social services in my hometown forced me here to stop the systemic abuses within their facilities being further exposed, which came to light recently), i have 1 friend who is my de facto carer, who is unlikely to be able to deal with this situation, i have no 'savings'. It is also very likely i will lose my benefits which we fought hard for and were only got in january, new address = new claim now. All the avenues that people assume are available are now either controlled opposition (look into gagging clauses, DWP, esther mcvile), totally gone or are being dismantled. You have no access to the justice system, in essence, no rights. Oh and did i mention i have an auto immune condition that flares up and exacerbates my ASD and totally cabbages my brain :(  FFS

The organisations that claim to be our representitives are fully complicit in this process and i am very sure bound by similar gagging clauses within their contracts that the DWP and McVile use.

Lets be perfectly frank for a change eh?

Metrics to measure the success of a project claiming to have the best interests of people on the spectrum (or any organisation making such claims on behalf of a group) must surely include, Life Expectancy and Cause of Death.

54.Suicide. Where is the commitment to RADICALLY change that statistic? 

I'm sure its getting worse.

And not a fecking PEEP out of NAS (created in 1962 remember, so TOTALLY on their watch), no efforts to organise, no efforts to create a 'class action' case (they have a different name here which i cant recall), the Autism act isnt worth the velum its written on, its even too rough to wipe your *** with.

The only people whose lives are supported BY autism are NTs

£100 million per year. Thats just NAS.

I don't want to die, i want to live, i have a lot to give, but we are pushed that far into the periphery that there is very little chance of acceptance let alone being afforded the same chances as NTs, i hope with all my heart that i am wrong and that i will be helped but bitter experience tells me different, our lives mean *** all.

  • They’ve already got me frozen out of most discussions. Over 6 weeks ago I sent a private email about a dodgy social worker to the forum moderator. Blow me if that person didn’t blow up publicly on the forum to a private discreet email she should never have seen almost straight away when the office was shut anyway! And people were Private Messaging and being urged to join in whatever it was they were keep to spread rather urgently! Dodgy social worker admitted it was her, next thing I knew that post and others of hers were removed. So it’s all pretty dodgy really. Worst thing of all is that we apparently don’t exist. Nonpersons. Mind you, I’m happier to be an independent nonperson who is on the spectrum than hanging on to dodgy supports. I await my execution with mounting excitement. 

  • Oh and if you try to create something to counter it from here the "undercover mods" will make an appearance and try to steer the momentum against you, questioning your motives, character and curtailing any progress you hope to make

  • Maz I've been where you are for years, I've even had a sniff around their accounts, ~£100 mil per year..

     I must've been being controversial 8 months ago and they did it when my dog was killed, so I wouldn't have noticed.

    They didn't silence me in response to your thread they silence me because I ask the same questions. .

  • They should really silence me, not you! I’m really fed up with them altogether. I tried really hard, kept issues private etc etc, but I’m a non person really as far as they are concerned. It’s not your problem. I stumbled on what was actually going on there and here. But I do sincerely hope you get positive support here from somebody. A lot have moved on, or gone quiet. I hope things get better for you soon. 

  • I actually tried to respond to your post and discovered i could no longer post without pre moderation. Its possible my reply to your thread will be allowed to go up but i doubt it.

    I didn't realise till now that I had in effect been silenced, I haven't spoken because I have been unable to.

  • Perdu, i was hoping someone in a better frame of mind than I am in at present would have responded to your sad message by now. I feel lost to the world too. But to have lost a dear pet on top of your home and everything else must be so devastating. I’m so sorry to hear what you’ve been through/still are and that you have been restricted from being able to vent on the forum. Are you completely alone? If so then this space to talk must have been very important to you. Hopefully someone feeling a bit more positive will talk to you too. 

  • I cannot reply as perdu, it is pre moderated now.

    I ended up homeless and my best friend (my dog) was murdered, i'm still homeless, still autistic and still no one gives a ***. Ive lost my independence and life looks fucking bleak.

  • Spot on, Perdu.

    I went through this myself about a year ago, after living in the same home for the best part of a decade, in a perfect location for minimising the stress of a noisy world, with good public transport connections, and with easy access to the greenery and isolation of the countryside which is such a therapy for me.

    I found myself priced out of anything so suitable for me, and priced out of this area where so many of the friends who support me all live. I need people like that nearby, as when I am burned out, travelling and indirect communication can be so hard for me.

    The place I've ended up is much better than it could have been; though more by luck than design (my landlady is a friend/carer of a good friend's father.) My friends are too distant, the unfamiliar area is daunting, and I share the property with my landlady (she is an absolute star, and very understanding of my autism, but the feeling of less privacy is still very stressful sometimes.)

    The stress of having to move, even with the help of friends, was immense, and I don't think I've even properly recovered yet.  I know that most private landlords will be interviewing and doing background checks on many people, and as with looking for work, my autistic traits and poor financial status count against me, whether this is explicit disability discrimination or not. Social services were a waste of time; when I noted how my aversion to noise, high traffic areas, etc. have a severe impact on my well being, I was basically told that there is no social housing other than in areas where it would be impossible for me to live comfortably, and that I was unreasonably restricting my options. Frankly, I'd rather live in a cave or a den in the woods than venture any nearer the city centre.

    Even here, I have to top up my rent from my other benefits, despite living in a single-floor en-suite bedsit, sharing a kitchen. If it weren't for my disability benefits, which can so easily be pulled from under me at any time, I would struggle to afford even the basic expenses of living; and I am someone who is very used to living without luxuries which most others take utterly for granted.

    Fortune has seen me through so far, but I know just how easily things could have been different; I was a "sofa-surfer" for several years when I was younger, living with only the possessions that I could carry in my rucksack. All of the current government's social and economic policies point in the wrong direction for this situation to become any better, and they seem intent on cramming in as much of a purge as they can during their remaining time in office. That there will be a crash, when debts outstrip the value of the properties by which they were secured, is a certainty, IMHO. Maybe when the end comes for me, being able to smugly say "I told you so" will be some consolation?

  • im feeling quite anxious now will have to contact my landlord to see if im safe thanks for the heads up i hope you find a solution to your situation soon

  • Bless the creatures in our lives who love us through thick and thin.

    Solidarity is much appreciated sunflower, ty.

  • Agree with so much of what you have written in this thread. I've never felt as strongly about social injustice as I do now (I'm 58). Wish I could think of something useful to say to you but I can't, so I'm sending a photo of my old dog (who was a Corbyn supporter) in solidarity. 

  • My situation is a warning for what is to come for a lot of people.

    There was a lot of talk last week of the blip on the markets being the 'correction' it wasn't. The correction will happen whether we brexit or not but if it happens to brexitland, most of the country will go under, it will be the greatest correction ever.

    Why?

    What my eviction is due to is the end of buy to let,interest only mortgage periods. These huge debts are now becoming due and if the owners can't stump up the sum in cash (or remortgage) they have to sell the property, many chancers built up mini empires bleeding the rental market dry, whilst only paying the interest for the property, they now cannot remortgage due to tighter buy to let motgage controls and tighter tax scrutiny in the rental sector.

    To exacerbate this situation, 4000 student accomodation places went into the market this year in the city, many of these landlords now have their properties on the market, effectively reducing the rental stock available to non student renters.

    To further add problems, as most of these houses up for sale are battered student lets they are unsuitable for families and the wider market so will now just sit empty, decaying further.

    Prices wont slump for a few years yet but by the time they do we will all be trading in nuka cola caps anyway. Joking aside when they do drop people still won't be able to buy.

    We need obi wan corbyn now more than ever.

  • hi perdu i know that fear of the brown envelope my stomach lurches whenever the postman comes the only day i can relax is sunday or bank hol as no post

    my heart literally sinks thinking about your situation i lost my home of 12 yrs because it was in a 2 bedroom and i only needed 1 it took me 2yrs to get over that i hope that something comes up for you and regards recording appointments etc i now do that after reading about your pip assessment such good advice

  • The last sentence is part of the illusion. They are not 'dingbats' and they are not getting 'away with' anything.

    They are morally compromised human beings being used by a fascist state to facilitate a 'soft cull', they are under instruction to behave in the way they are against the people least able to speak up, either through disability, race, socio economic grouping or voting block. The people who historically would have spoken up about the injustices have had gagging clauses placed on them in the form of government contracts, meaning they CANNOT speak out or they go under.

    We are useless eaters to them, always remember that.

  • Its why we need some group litigation to be going on, both nationally and regionally. Initially it should be the worst councils in the UK to be dragged through the courts, whilst a seperate case targets the gov. The law, morality and history is very much on our side.

  • Apparently as an INTP I am yoda.

    Second, No Comment.

  • That's bloody atrocious Perdu :( what a grossly unfair set of circumstances.

    I don't think I have any advice to give, I'm only in my 20s and have never been in that situation, but I hope things will turn out ok for you in the end.

    The system is indeed corrupt and unfit for purpose. I'm going to support a friend at their 2nd benefits appeal next week (not autistic, mental health). It shouldn't have come to that, the assessor actively lied about what he could and could not do throughout their initial report. It's revolting what these dingbats get away with.

  • So, with the recent statistics on homeless death rates are you planning a societal awareness plus or minus an Alex Guinness. Which geographic region are you based? 

  • Yep just took a break for some food, some dog hugs and some cat drama.

    There is no stay put option, if you mean as in fight the eviction or squatting or such like, to do so would throw away a 10 year + good tenant reference which have got to be a rarity, its really the only thing going for me in that regards.

    I've fought and won against much bigger bullies than a city council.

    I think the only thing for them to do is revise the needs assesment to include housing, step up the timetable and get this in place before the eviction date, the alternatives will cost much more.

    Should i end up homeless.....

    A well organised homeless camp in the middle of their prized park should focus their mind, then when i create the narrative around the people that find themselves homeless, the circumstances that brought them there and the lack of support for the vulnerable. I will make sure that every resident in the city truly understands why its going on and that this could happen to them or their kids. 

    I will then conflate service cuts with vanity projects, pay bonuses with pay cuts, surplus deaths with greed and then i will hit their prized jewel, a certain event i cant name for giving my local away, but needless to say it will  become THE most distasteful waste of resources they have presided over.

    Occupy 2.0: The Reckoning, more angry, more needed.

    Fuc|< it homelessness sounds good now.. The start of the winter of discontent.