Beginning of the end?

Whilst replying to a thread i created the other day i heard the flap of the letterbox thud as the post dropped through the door, i try not to be afraid of the post these days, the fear of those brown envelopes is consuming and soul destroying, so i carried on replying to a complex thread, mid reply i took a pause, made a cup of tea and retrieved the post; no brown envelope, phew, a slightly chunky white one though so i opened it and as i did i saw the logo of my letting agent. my first thought was oh its that time of year again, tenancy must be up for renewal.

How wrong was i?

It was a notice to vacate my home for the past 10 years. A 'No fault eviction'. I quickly finished the reply, posted it and broke down. I spent most of my 20s homeless and living on the streets, i can't do it again at 42, i just can't.

I havn't recovered and i dont think i will. This is the time this evil tory government will introduce me to my very own cliff edge, fly lil birdie, fly.

I've been undergoing the fake 'needs assesment' process with social services and an advocate for the past year at least, i know i wont get any help from them, i will be forced onto the streets whilst they overlook the process fully aware that i have no family in the area (i live 150 miles from 'home' and not by choice, corrupt social services in my hometown forced me here to stop the systemic abuses within their facilities being further exposed, which came to light recently), i have 1 friend who is my de facto carer, who is unlikely to be able to deal with this situation, i have no 'savings'. It is also very likely i will lose my benefits which we fought hard for and were only got in january, new address = new claim now. All the avenues that people assume are available are now either controlled opposition (look into gagging clauses, DWP, esther mcvile), totally gone or are being dismantled. You have no access to the justice system, in essence, no rights. Oh and did i mention i have an auto immune condition that flares up and exacerbates my ASD and totally cabbages my brain :(  FFS

The organisations that claim to be our representitives are fully complicit in this process and i am very sure bound by similar gagging clauses within their contracts that the DWP and McVile use.

Lets be perfectly frank for a change eh?

Metrics to measure the success of a project claiming to have the best interests of people on the spectrum (or any organisation making such claims on behalf of a group) must surely include, Life Expectancy and Cause of Death.

54.Suicide. Where is the commitment to RADICALLY change that statistic? 

I'm sure its getting worse.

And not a fecking PEEP out of NAS (created in 1962 remember, so TOTALLY on their watch), no efforts to organise, no efforts to create a 'class action' case (they have a different name here which i cant recall), the Autism act isnt worth the velum its written on, its even too rough to wipe your *** with.

The only people whose lives are supported BY autism are NTs

£100 million per year. Thats just NAS.

I don't want to die, i want to live, i have a lot to give, but we are pushed that far into the periphery that there is very little chance of acceptance let alone being afforded the same chances as NTs, i hope with all my heart that i am wrong and that i will be helped but bitter experience tells me different, our lives mean *** all.