Stepping out on my own! - breaking ties rather than keep trying to conform and failing

Hi Ellie. I am no good at wise words. If you want to chat message me. I have left everything behind to escape the violence and abuse but I was 18, a long long time ago. My life has had its ups and downs since then, not all of them healthy but had i stayed at home either they would have killed me or broken me even more.

the question I ask is Ellie if I sat down with you and told you the things that are in your life, what would you advise me to do?say

Song

Hi Ellie. I am no good at wise words. If you want to chat message me. I have left everything behind to escape the violence and abuse but I was 18, a long long time ago. My life has had its ups and downs since then, not all of them healthy but had i stayed at home either they would have killed me or broken me even more.

the question I ask is Ellie if I sat down with you and told you the things that are in your life, what would you advise me to do?say

Song

Thank you Song. 

I’m at the hospital at the moment visiting my OH. I’m sure that my situation is not as bad as yours but do feel like one of life’s hobos trying to steer a straight course and never quite belonging... flitting from place to place until I’m no longer wanted.

The day to day is manageable as long as you grit teeth, cling onto pride and overcompensate by always trying to do the right thing and comply.

Im not the easiest of people ... a hungry mind and a soul that needs feeding with calm and positive action.

a good friend of mine once said that due to such a chipped away sense of self worth I have chosen what I think is “good enough” for me. But invariably it is not....I need more space, I need to breathe

i hope you’re ok.