ASSESSMENT FOR HENDROW, THE DAY LOOMS LARGE. . . . . . .

Realise you have some major stuff going on and missed you online.

hang in ther Hendrow

I am not sure what happened to my account here???  Just so you all know, I, (Off Screen and in reality) somehow ended up with a PiP Assessment and Capability for work Assessment all within a 50 hour period. 'One on a Wednesday and then the other on the Friday' Bear in mind, I also had my 'homelessness situation to deal with' worsening health leading to lot's of test etc. Causing me to think . . . . . . . What The "Funky Music" is going on here?? Returning to the first non rhetorical question, What Happened To My Account Here?? 

Are you ok?  Missing you here....even the jokes !!

How are things going, Hendrow?

Speaking of Assessments, I have one on the 22nd,23rd and the 31st of this month. Housing, ESA and PiP respectively, I don't know how that happened.  

"I put it to the back of my mind, it just comes back to mind"  

Mind you I'd back you, to mind me back if I need a banks-man Tom.

It'll soon go, believe me.  If a 12-week warranty on a used car can fly by, so will the wait for an assessment!  I remember getting the notification of mine sometime in November 2014 - for March 2015!  I couldn't believe I'd have to wait so long.  But before I knew it...

Remember - a watched pot never boils.  Try, if you can, to put it to the back of your mind.

This thread has not turned as I expected it would. I could just copy and paste the comment above, everything in my life at the moment seem's to revolve around Autism and this Bloody assessment.  

Time is slow, it seems to be dragging on, what can I do to make 12 weeks fly by,?l Let me think. . . . . . .

I was advised today by my GP that I may still have to wait up to 3 months, just to get a date for my HFA Assessment. (Holding back the tears) Not tears of joy either. I am counting the days.  :(

Thanks Tom, you may have to say that to me "Allo, 'Allo  Style, hope all is good with you.

I know the feeling, Hendrow.  I counted the months, then weeks, then days... then hours!  Worth it in the end.  Not long now... :)

I was told on Friday by a locum GP that it could be at least three weeks before I get an assessment date.

19 Days to go then, not that I am counting or anything, lol.

The pressure is mounting.

This was written some years ago, I believe, I still think it is an interesting read, considering all that has transpired since then.

Reasons to be fearful part 3

HENDROW CHRISTIE·WEDNESDAY, 26 JULY 2017

Please please please, try and understand that it is not that I want to die or anything like that, I am ‘not well’ you may hear me say. I am just ‘LAZY’ Like my dad used to say, I hate it I [*******] hate feeling like this, why am I wasting more time, more of my life, looking for answers, what if I had a diagnosis that explained everything that is, and that has happened to me, I am so lethargic, right now-oh sorry, most of the time! it is so very very depressing, I do not assume that it is easy for normal people, but it’s just that it seems impossible for me at the bad times.

I have looked for years on and off, for an answer to ‘what is wrong with me?’ I have been in church (religion of sorts) That hasn’t worked. Now; because this thing works in cycles I am kind of okay right now, but that is utter [‘********’] I am tired of trying to be normal (Physically) or right (Mentally). I feel a bit better right now just for writing this down, I do feel that although in my case there is a hell of a lot of evidence to back up my case, I have an overwhelming feeling that this will not be accepted, what am I signing up for? What would I be losing, what would I gain?

It is a living ‘[*******] Hell’ most days when I am not well. I have always looked at this back to front, the wrong way around, i.e. Thinking that I am depressed and that makes me lethargic and lifeless. My point is what if I am lethargic and lifeless and that in turn is a depressing state to be in? It would cause me to ask yet again, what the ‘[*******] hell’ is wrong with me. It does now make sense, or is this yet another attempt (Of Mine) to escape taking responsibility, if I had a debilitating disease then maybe people wouldn’t expect so much from me (Including Me! I have no energy left to do anything, I ‘[*******] Hate It’ God know I do.) So hopefully you can see that it is not that I want to die.

REASONS TO BE FEARFUL PART 2

I want to live I realise I want to live!

I have lost my flow so it’s time to go,

What I feel only I know,

Am I the fool from this brand,

Who expects others to understand,

I’ve lost so much over the years,

I have lost touch and cried many tears,

It does make me look at myself with hate,

I am nobody's friend, no one’s mate,

Will I find somebody that comprehends,

The cycles I ride, it’s recent trend’s,

Trapped in this body that just won’t work,

My life is shoddy, I feel like a jerk,

Makes me feel like I am a child,

Whose innocence was stolen, when I was defiled,

Oh God, oh I wish I could be a man,

It cannot be done, without a plan,

Yes, as usual, it is all about ME,

Could that Freudian slip, set me free?

Sometimes I am blind or totally deaf,

There are times when I have nothing left,

I am just too much, is what they cry,

Just leave me alone and pass on by.

[Edited by Ayshe Mod]