Older women on the forum? Your early years? Mine are in my profile. Share?
Older women on the forum? Your early years? Mine are in my profile. Share?
It's an amazing privilege to be able to read your life's journey, considering that you've grown up hiding and masking yourself, and I really admire your courage to share what you've been through in your life.
I'm in my early 30s, but I feel like an old soul. I look and dress plainly, and I'd rather do introverted activities.
I grew up abused, which was physical, mental, and emotional abuse, but not sexual abuse. I don't think that being abused creates a person who knows how to socially interact in a normal way, and although I had replayed social interactions in my mind countless times before, I've realized to not fault myself for not getting social interactions quite right, considering the people who raised me didn't have very good social skills either, and they're who I had to learn from.
As a child, I cried almost everyday to the point that I got so fed up with wasting so much time, that I decided to learn a new skill and try to get better at it. Having something to focus has saved me so many times when I was in despair about the abuse and feeling trapped. But I'm very glad I chose to work on something everyday which gave me discipline, and that aided in my independence later on in life. Because no one abusive is going to teach you how to be independent and free.
As an adult I got out of that situation, and I've had about a decade to recover from i., but recovering is still ongoing. I still enjoy picking up new skills and reading up on things. But right now, finances are tight, so I can't afford to get all the supplies I need to do the things I want to do. But other than that life is a lot more peaceful than it used to be.
It's an amazing privilege to be able to read your life's journey, considering that you've grown up hiding and masking yourself, and I really admire your courage to share what you've been through in your life.
I'm in my early 30s, but I feel like an old soul. I look and dress plainly, and I'd rather do introverted activities.
I grew up abused, which was physical, mental, and emotional abuse, but not sexual abuse. I don't think that being abused creates a person who knows how to socially interact in a normal way, and although I had replayed social interactions in my mind countless times before, I've realized to not fault myself for not getting social interactions quite right, considering the people who raised me didn't have very good social skills either, and they're who I had to learn from.
As a child, I cried almost everyday to the point that I got so fed up with wasting so much time, that I decided to learn a new skill and try to get better at it. Having something to focus has saved me so many times when I was in despair about the abuse and feeling trapped. But I'm very glad I chose to work on something everyday which gave me discipline, and that aided in my independence later on in life. Because no one abusive is going to teach you how to be independent and free.
As an adult I got out of that situation, and I've had about a decade to recover from i., but recovering is still ongoing. I still enjoy picking up new skills and reading up on things. But right now, finances are tight, so I can't afford to get all the supplies I need to do the things I want to do. But other than that life is a lot more peaceful than it used to be.
Having something to focus has saved me so many times when I was in despair
But I'm very glad I chose to work on something everyday which gave me discipline, and that aided in my independence later on in life. Because no one abusive is going to teach you how to be independent and free.
Copy all this, we taught ourselves to be independent of the expectations of others and found the "zone" where we could shine, even under a basket.
thanks for sharing.
