Struggling to accept myself

I'm 22 I was diagnosed at 21 and am going through a similar time. I feel quite inadequate and stupid and am experiencing serious skill regression. I'm really burnt out, unemployed and have no idea what sort of job I can work without being burnt out. One thing that has helped me is realizing that every thing I think is for a reason and is not an original thought, anyone in my position would think the same things. It makes complete sense that you'd speak to yourself really negatively and assume that it's some unique problem specifically wrong with you if your whole life that's what you've been told. The voice in your head echoes what you've been taught and what you've experienced but getting an autism diagnosis means you need to rewrite the whole experience. Look back on things you struggled with or times you've been harsh to yourself and ask yourself what really happened there? Try looking at it with an autism lens and imagine it's an autistic friend going through whatever the experience is. Try be compassionate and see that you're always doing your best with what you've got. I remember times where I've called people names and been really aggressive and I use to feel shame and always thought I was born irrationally angry but now I look back and feel sorry for myself because I was so overwhelmed with noises and didn't know what to do. I'm grateful for my diagnosis because it allows me to understand my past experiences better and forgive myself. As for telling other people about being autistic I think why would I want to be friends with someone who judges people for being autistic? Why would that persons opinion matter to me they sound daft. I've found sometimes telling people I'm autistic means I get to meet more autistic people and I normally really get on with autistic people. Saying that I haven't told everyone in my life yet and it's all still a working progress. 

"I'm grateful for my diagnosis because it allows me to understand my past experiences better and forgive myself." - Yes! Such an important statement (yours not mine!)

"I'm grateful for my diagnosis because it allows me to understand my past experiences better and forgive myself." - Yes! Such an important statement (yours not mine!)