Struggling to accept myself

I am 24 and got diagnosed at 17. I struggle to accept it and wish I was someone else, I would change myself in a heartbeat. I am embarrassed of being autistic. I don’t tell anybody unless I feel absolutely necessary, people just think I am weird. 

I work 5 days a week and really struggle, I’m not sure if it’s too much for me. I feel stupid just writing this. I really hate myself.

How did you accept yourself? My acceptance seems to get worse 

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  • I am choosing carefully, who i tell, that i am autistic. I think the reason for this is a worry that i will be jumped on.... oh your not autistic, oh everyone wants to be autistic, which happened to me. But i am shocked at the amount of people who are saying....my sister, my daughter, i am autistic, i think i am autistic. It is opening up a whole conversation and sharing experiences. I think a lot of people are reluctant to speak about it. Maybe take a chance with those that you feel comfortable with, you may be pleasantly suprised. I think by doing this, you will realise that there are more of "us" than we think and it is very likely that you will be encouraging others too. That gives a whole new perspective on it and gradually help to embrace who we are x

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  • I am choosing carefully, who i tell, that i am autistic. I think the reason for this is a worry that i will be jumped on.... oh your not autistic, oh everyone wants to be autistic, which happened to me. But i am shocked at the amount of people who are saying....my sister, my daughter, i am autistic, i think i am autistic. It is opening up a whole conversation and sharing experiences. I think a lot of people are reluctant to speak about it. Maybe take a chance with those that you feel comfortable with, you may be pleasantly suprised. I think by doing this, you will realise that there are more of "us" than we think and it is very likely that you will be encouraging others too. That gives a whole new perspective on it and gradually help to embrace who we are x

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