I'm really worried that my masking ability is decreasing with age. I'm nearly 34 and I am always struggling to fit in and make new friends even though I spend most of my evenings in exercise classes. Its very difficult and I just shut down in social environments then am left feeling disappointed and sad that I can't put myself out there and communicate. I am always the only one sitting alone quietly while everyone mingles.
I'm masking all day at work as I am always having to help people and have meetings. I'm just desperate to have people understand me but I'm afraid it won't change anything for the better. I also hold alot of resentment for having to carry this all my life without knowing I needed help.
How does everyone else cope with social and working life? Are you open or masking?
