Beauty

Not exactly. I decided long ago that I didn't care. Up to a point of course, not quite sure what this and it probably depends on context.

I recall one horrible time in senior school, back in the 80s when I was a teenager, in a lesson, they put all the chairs in a circle and told us to sit in order of attractiveness and then everyone could chip in and tell people to move up or down until the order was agreed. How awful that the teacher actually did this! Thinking back, I am actually shocked as it seems so inappropriate. We also did it for intelligence and maybe one other trait I forget. But for the attractiveness one I chose to sit in the lowest seat to announce I don't care and also then if anyone moved me up fine but they couldn't make me feel bad by moving me lower!

I am also very triggered by makeup and find it revolting to look at on other people (especially around the mouth, in the same way I loathe looking at for example a pic of a small child with food smeared round its mouth, or drooling, or people cleaning their teeth) although I cover up my reaction so I don't think anyone knows how I feel about it unless I've told them. It's certainly not something I would ever use. I hate having my hair touched and now cut my own. I'm glad it doesn't look like a bird's nest but would probably still do that even if it did... How did I ever find a husband?! In fact I was not single for more than a year or two since uni. I think I am probably average looking in fact.

I do dislike some things about my appearance and try to cover those up or position myself in such a way they are less obvious, so I guess I must care a bit. I am also quite interested in clothes, though not in terms of what is in fashion or out. I don't mind how other people look either for the most part. So I guess i am somewhat bemused by why people care so much.

Not exactly. I decided long ago that I didn't care. Up to a point of course, not quite sure what this and it probably depends on context.

I recall one horrible time in senior school, back in the 80s when I was a teenager, in a lesson, they put all the chairs in a circle and told us to sit in order of attractiveness and then everyone could chip in and tell people to move up or down until the order was agreed. How awful that the teacher actually did this! Thinking back, I am actually shocked as it seems so inappropriate. We also did it for intelligence and maybe one other trait I forget. But for the attractiveness one I chose to sit in the lowest seat to announce I don't care and also then if anyone moved me up fine but they couldn't make me feel bad by moving me lower!

I am also very triggered by makeup and find it revolting to look at on other people (especially around the mouth, in the same way I loathe looking at for example a pic of a small child with food smeared round its mouth, or drooling, or people cleaning their teeth) although I cover up my reaction so I don't think anyone knows how I feel about it unless I've told them. It's certainly not something I would ever use. I hate having my hair touched and now cut my own. I'm glad it doesn't look like a bird's nest but would probably still do that even if it did... How did I ever find a husband?! In fact I was not single for more than a year or two since uni. I think I am probably average looking in fact.

I do dislike some things about my appearance and try to cover those up or position myself in such a way they are less obvious, so I guess I must care a bit. I am also quite interested in clothes, though not in terms of what is in fashion or out. I don't mind how other people look either for the most part. So I guess i am somewhat bemused by why people care so much.

AuTriker said:

I recall one horrible time in senior school, back in the 80s when I was a teenager, in a lesson, they put all the chairs in a circle and told us to sit in order of attractiveness and then everyone could chip in and tell people to move up or down until the order was agreed.

That is psychological/emotional abuse.