Hello everyone. I am formally diagnosed with autism in my early adult years. I've realised all my life that I was not "normal". I have always had anger issues and not sure how to control/manage my emotions. I have had meltdowns over the years where I lose control and say mean things I really don't mean. I really feel guilty about it, I'm trying to figure out ways to control my frequent meltdowns. I felt really upset today and was really close to tears how I have been difficult over the years with my family and friends over the years. How much stress I've put my family through my autism challenges, it's really taking an emotional tool on me. I have regrets every single day of my life over my meltdowns.
I had no idea it was autism I had years ago. I never understood why I was struggling so badly.
I don't mean all the horrible things I have said to people when having my meltdown. My triggers include too much information overload, being hungry or tired, overwhelmed emotionally and not knowing to express my emotions in a healthy way.
I am really struggling to deal with my frequent outbursts. Usually they say meditation or mindfulness, I will try that. Any other suggestions to help me deal with the meltdowns and
I find it difficult to identify my emotions (alexithymia), especially when I get angry, frustrated, rage etc. especially in the heat of the moment. Please help me by either sharing your stories or any advice you have.
Also, massive thank you to everyone who replied to my previous post. I'm starting to feel less alone, knowing that there's people out there who are facing similar struggles to me. Thank you so much. This is the first time that I've opened up on an online forum, glad I'm not being shamed for my struggles.
