Feeling down

Hi everyone

yesterdqy I went to a Halloween social event with my friend many people there were neurodivergent, mainly autistic and adhd 

I tried my hardest to do the board games which I love, some new games but I found the social speaking side so hard, I felt like i was not asking enough or saying too much, my humour was hit and miss I felt like every time others spoke they all laughed and got on and I was sidelined. I just left and went home in a Uber 

im full of tears writing this, I really can’t face another social situation I prefer to be on my own with my interests and spending the time with my son 

does anyone else feel like this