Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm super anxious about it and I can't sleep, that's why I'm here.
I'm a 50-year-old male and I first came across what used to be called Asperger's about 15 years ago. I showed it to my partner and said I think I might have that. We both laughed and I didn't take it further, but that stayed with me all these years. Last year I had a really severe burnout, so I finally decided to seriously look into it.
I am self-diagnosed. After doing a lot of research, I am now convinced that I'm on the spectrum. But I still want a medical diagnosis so I can stop obsessing about it and move on with my life.
I'm really worried that they will tell me I'm not autistic. It would be a textbook definition of 'gaslighting'. I think I'd go insane!
I got assessed and diagnosed today. It was no surprise, I've been on this process for a long time as I mentioned, but I'm happy to put it behind me.
They said they will refer me to a support group with other late diagnosed autists, I'm looking forward to hearing their stories.
Thank you all for your messages of support.
Congratulations! I’m also self diagnosed and on my journey I’m not even sure if I get assessed but in fact few professionals recently said I’m probably autistic. Regardless of if I really am or not, I have mental health issues my whole life and now also struggling and I would love to join a support group, but for that I need a dx. I wish you all best!