I'm having my assessment today

I'm super anxious about it and I can't sleep, that's why I'm here.

I'm a 50-year-old male and I first came across what used to be called Asperger's about 15 years ago. I showed it to my partner and said I think I might have that. We both laughed and I didn't take it further, but that stayed with me all these years. Last year I had a really severe burnout, so I finally decided to seriously look into it.

I am self-diagnosed. After doing a lot of research, I am now convinced that I'm on the spectrum. But I still want a medical diagnosis so I can stop obsessing about it and move on with my life.

I'm really worried that they will tell me I'm not autistic. It would be a textbook definition of 'gaslighting'. I think I'd go insane!