She wants out

My daughter has come up to me and said she wants out of school. I never thought I'd here her say that. She is in an autism specialist independent school, staffed 2:1. She struggles so much on a daily basis, something going wrong everyday. She is serious about leaving now because she has realised her mental health is not good when she goes and that staff no longer help or understand her. 

She is really scared that if she does leave, the huge change in routine will tip her over the edge, and she will end up doing something stupid. She said this is why she doesn't want to leave school. She also doesn't know what to do because if she leaves, her mental health will be really bad and she won't want to work or help me work or whatnot because she just won't cope. Also having a traumatising time at her last job, it has put her off altogether. I'm worried about how she will cope with her mental health. 

In the meantime she is due back to school next Monday. Her friend has said she will go with her to school on Monday. On Wednesday we have a meeting with the school but we don't know what about. She also said that in school she has pretended to be me, writing letters on what will help her and things like that. I think she prefers to do this way of communication, pretending to be someone else, than saying herself. 

What can help her because we are at a lost? Any ideas we are grateful for. I feel like it's a race against time now. 

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  • UPDATE: Now she is absolutely loving school, behaving and engaging above and beyond, really happy and chatty, communicating well verbally, has not asked for a staff change and is working really well. Absolutely loves it now. 

  • Enjoy it while it lasts!

    She appears to be displaying the classic autistic 'black and white', 'all or nothing' thinking. School is either entirely bad or entirely good with no middle ground. 

    The trouble is that life doesn't work like that and there will be good and bad parts. The next time she has a bad day it could flip that switch again to 'school is bad'.

    Does she keep a journal or diary? That might be an idea, to record everything that is good about school currently. You could use that as a resource to remind her that it isn't always like that when she is next in the 'school is bad' mode of thinking.

  • Yes, I totally agree with you. We will enjoy it whilst it lasts. She is just amazing at the moment. Definitely black and white, always has been. 

  • That B&W is actually just an acute intensity of impact due to everything being felt with greater sensitivity. From feelings to physical impact from our senses. 

    The more she learns to protect / shield herself, create healthy boundaries and have tools to begin to anticipate the world around the better prepared she will be. It is more detailed knowledge, not less, which can help. This is the Bayesian Theory and difficulty with assuming/prediction causing great stress. Without knowledge, everything is always a surprise, and not a good one, thus the seemingly polar responses. 

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  • That B&W is actually just an acute intensity of impact due to everything being felt with greater sensitivity. From feelings to physical impact from our senses. 

    The more she learns to protect / shield herself, create healthy boundaries and have tools to begin to anticipate the world around the better prepared she will be. It is more detailed knowledge, not less, which can help. This is the Bayesian Theory and difficulty with assuming/prediction causing great stress. Without knowledge, everything is always a surprise, and not a good one, thus the seemingly polar responses. 

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