Recently diagnosed autistic daughter

Gosh. this sounds severe. I am sorry to hear. I have a 20 something son, and I was once an undiagnosed daughter with a mother I no longer speak with. I have a feeling my mother is undiagnosed but from a generation of individuals who think poorly of Autistic and other neurodivergent traits.

What I mean by severe is that this sounds like a great deal has been building for some time and finally crossed a threshold. I'm not sure what. With children, it seems to me much can be averted by addressing any conflict the moment it happens or before theres room for resentment to grow. But at this point, it really sounds as though some kind of professional help is needed to unpack everything which has - potential - built up and unravel a great deal of impact to find the source such as dynamics, perspectives, misunderstandings and so on. 

If this were a situation with a couple, one might recommend a separation and potentially divorce. But with a parent/child the burden is on the parent, just as with the owner of a company, the weight is on the one who's investment is at risk or who's role suggests an authority. A company will bring in professionals to help re-evaluate how operations are impacting employees if it seems everything is in decline.

Many times we weren't parented correctly and are simply repeating some kind of social indoctrination which might involve unrealistic expectations. It's so easy to assume our children are exactly like us and will respond to external stimuli or even internal the same. I recognised when my son was young I was out of touch with myself - my words and actions didn't match my intention. I recognised I was exhausted by 26, worn down and left unprotected. I would break down constantly and it was affecting him. It was really hard to parent. I needed a great deal of time to heal myself from far too much trauma and I was so young. At that point I had to overhaul my life. Things just couldn't continue the way they were. We all have a different story, but this is a familiar one to many. 

I had to learn how to respect my son, how to afford him dignity by pulling him quietly aside and asking why he did a thing - careful not to humiliate him in front of others which my mother often did to me without noticing. She was driven to be truthful at any cost and ruin my reputation in the process - I never wanted to do this. You could say this was a valuable lesson, but my son has learned how to afford others dignity by how I offered it to him. There was a lot of unnecessary cruelties I had to take notice of lest I repeat them. This isn't everyone, but it is important to understand how the majority operate will traumatise any young Autistic child. Our motives can be incredibly different. How we use language different. How well does she command vocabulary? If it's poor, she may be like many of us with a type of alexithymia and aphasia. I cannot access the right words for everything going through my head still - especially when stressed, though I don't allow myself to be subjected to stressful situations any more if I can do something about it. I couldn't string a proper sentence together until around 30. I managed life by being silent and 'dressing the part'. 

The two things that can overnight create substantial change would be to always be respectful regardless of how another (including my child) operates. Respect is free. I can be grounded in myself and give it and it is always about my strength and never really about the other. When they're ready and when they sense your dependability on this matter, they'll participate. The second thing which can overhaul a situation like this is to never interrupt and do not allow interruptions. If this hasn't been in place since their young years, it will take some adjusting. This doesn't mean to respond with disregard. If I'm on the phone, I can say hold on a moment, tell my child I want to hear them out but I'm focused on this moment. I will be off in 30 minutes and will attend to whatever they need then. And then proceed to follow this exactly. Again, this is a matter of handling everything and everyone with respect (myself included). For an Autistic, follow-through, one-thing-at-a-time, allowing focus, never interrupting, Monotropism monotropism.org is the key here. 

Gosh. this sounds severe. I am sorry to hear. I have a 20 something son, and I was once an undiagnosed daughter with a mother I no longer speak with. I have a feeling my mother is undiagnosed but from a generation of individuals who think poorly of Autistic and other neurodivergent traits.

What I mean by severe is that this sounds like a great deal has been building for some time and finally crossed a threshold. I'm not sure what. With children, it seems to me much can be averted by addressing any conflict the moment it happens or before theres room for resentment to grow. But at this point, it really sounds as though some kind of professional help is needed to unpack everything which has - potential - built up and unravel a great deal of impact to find the source such as dynamics, perspectives, misunderstandings and so on. 

If this were a situation with a couple, one might recommend a separation and potentially divorce. But with a parent/child the burden is on the parent, just as with the owner of a company, the weight is on the one who's investment is at risk or who's role suggests an authority. A company will bring in professionals to help re-evaluate how operations are impacting employees if it seems everything is in decline.

Many times we weren't parented correctly and are simply repeating some kind of social indoctrination which might involve unrealistic expectations. It's so easy to assume our children are exactly like us and will respond to external stimuli or even internal the same. I recognised when my son was young I was out of touch with myself - my words and actions didn't match my intention. I recognised I was exhausted by 26, worn down and left unprotected. I would break down constantly and it was affecting him. It was really hard to parent. I needed a great deal of time to heal myself from far too much trauma and I was so young. At that point I had to overhaul my life. Things just couldn't continue the way they were. We all have a different story, but this is a familiar one to many. 

I had to learn how to respect my son, how to afford him dignity by pulling him quietly aside and asking why he did a thing - careful not to humiliate him in front of others which my mother often did to me without noticing. She was driven to be truthful at any cost and ruin my reputation in the process - I never wanted to do this. You could say this was a valuable lesson, but my son has learned how to afford others dignity by how I offered it to him. There was a lot of unnecessary cruelties I had to take notice of lest I repeat them. This isn't everyone, but it is important to understand how the majority operate will traumatise any young Autistic child. Our motives can be incredibly different. How we use language different. How well does she command vocabulary? If it's poor, she may be like many of us with a type of alexithymia and aphasia. I cannot access the right words for everything going through my head still - especially when stressed, though I don't allow myself to be subjected to stressful situations any more if I can do something about it. I couldn't string a proper sentence together until around 30. I managed life by being silent and 'dressing the part'. 

The two things that can overnight create substantial change would be to always be respectful regardless of how another (including my child) operates. Respect is free. I can be grounded in myself and give it and it is always about my strength and never really about the other. When they're ready and when they sense your dependability on this matter, they'll participate. The second thing which can overhaul a situation like this is to never interrupt and do not allow interruptions. If this hasn't been in place since their young years, it will take some adjusting. This doesn't mean to respond with disregard. If I'm on the phone, I can say hold on a moment, tell my child I want to hear them out but I'm focused on this moment. I will be off in 30 minutes and will attend to whatever they need then. And then proceed to follow this exactly. Again, this is a matter of handling everything and everyone with respect (myself included). For an Autistic, follow-through, one-thing-at-a-time, allowing focus, never interrupting, Monotropism monotropism.org is the key here. 

Thank you for your reply. 

Well until 6 months ago she had been masking so I can't help but feel her diagnoses has just made everything a million times harder as it's all come at once. We always resolve all conflict head on and keep open communication at all times as a family.... she really has no reason to hate us if I am honest. We couldn't do more for her and she's 13 years old with no trauma, a secure family setting, has never wanted for anything, good education etc. 

One thing I am concerned about is the amount of time she spends in her room on her phone. Would you suggest taking her phone away for an hour a day etc? She constantly says how unhappy we make her. but we aren't actually doing anything other than not giving her everything she wants at a drop of a hat! But I guess for her that's the worse thing we can do.. 

She is high functioning so has always been able to exceed well in education and has many friends so I am not concerned as such regarding communication but she is so unbelievably disrespectful and rude when she does communicate. I think your comment re respect is interesting as she clearly has none for us and I guess she thinks that we have none for her.. will work on this. 

Thank you again