Hi there. It is simply the chronic nature of all of our problems taking its toll over time. I'm tired and emotional and probably need a good sleep.
Our cannabis prescription is still helping but, even at that, I have occasional breakthroughs of very negative emotions, especially during annual "milestones" (for which read "millstones" in our case) such as birthdays, anniversaries and Christmas. Unfortunately we are now entering a two month period where a lot of these cluster together. And this isn't helped when I can see others in my family buying then renovating their own homes, getting jobs and relationships and generally getting on with their lives. And yes, the conventional ways aren't necessarily our ways, but there's been a long dearth of anything positive happening around here, whether in the orthodox ways or not.
In a way, I can cope with specific things happening - i.e. one off negative events - much more easily than a daily grind which doesn't let up. Maybe I'll just have a cry then a sleep and re-emerge feeling as though I've had a good vent and be good to continue.
