I know all the studies say they dont really know, but if they dont know, then how do i know i didnt cause it?
In 2005 i gave birth to a baby boy who was 36+6 days gestation, 8lbs and 53 Cm's long, His name was Frazer, and he had died in my tummy two days before he was born. We were destroyed, our hearts completely broken.
We started trying immediately as i couldn't be a mummy with no baby, and we were pregnant in 6 weeks, we were still grief stricken, but so over joyed that we had a baby on its way, however we were terrified the same would happen again, we lived in complete fear.
I cant help but feel (know) in my heart that my terror that he may die, contributed or caused his autism.
Am i alone in feeling the blame lies with me, i suspect not. Anyone else have anything they cant help but "know" was their fault too? Would really like to hear from others in the same mindset as myself xx
