I can understand why you're thinking the way you are. I can assure you, though, that your death would make things worse for your son rather than better. My dad died when I was only four years old. I have only one memory of him, just the one. I'm in my 50s now and still grieve that he was in my life for so short a time. Please don't take away from your son the most precious thing he has - you.
You have no guarantees that your plan would work either. He still may not get the help he needs and in the meantime he could be placed in an abusive care home or foster situation.
I suspect you've tried these routes already but it's always worth a mention. I was thinking maybe CAB or whether your local council's Welfare Rights team could help. Even if they can't signpost you to other sources of help for your son, they may be able to suggest benefits you could get which might allow you to cut your working hours and take him to support groups.
Hopefully other people will come up with more and better suggestions. I just hope you can hang on. I know it's incredibly hard. It must break your heart to see your boy suffering and find blocks in the way of you getting him some help. Please do take care of yourself as best you can and please don't leave your son. Believe me, he needs you more than anything else in the world. x
I can understand why you're thinking the way you are. I can assure you, though, that your death would make things worse for your son rather than better. My dad died when I was only four years old. I have only one memory of him, just the one. I'm in my 50s now and still grieve that he was in my life for so short a time. Please don't take away from your son the most precious thing he has - you.
You have no guarantees that your plan would work either. He still may not get the help he needs and in the meantime he could be placed in an abusive care home or foster situation.
I suspect you've tried these routes already but it's always worth a mention. I was thinking maybe CAB or whether your local council's Welfare Rights team could help. Even if they can't signpost you to other sources of help for your son, they may be able to suggest benefits you could get which might allow you to cut your working hours and take him to support groups.
Hopefully other people will come up with more and better suggestions. I just hope you can hang on. I know it's incredibly hard. It must break your heart to see your boy suffering and find blocks in the way of you getting him some help. Please do take care of yourself as best you can and please don't leave your son. Believe me, he needs you more than anything else in the world. x
