I actually understand and feel sympathetic towards what you feel, because I have had some similar experiences.
After a lifetime of problems with not getting along with people. I have had a lot of time and practice at developing coping strategies which means I can fool many people that I am NT, up to a point. But eventually my acting breaks down and people start shunning me because they consider me strange.
Most of my problems are dealing with people and socialising. I say inappropriate things, sometimes I am am self aware at other times I haven't a clue why people get upset.
I have received help at various times with various problems and like you, sometimes the people in charge give me funny looks and eventually ask me to leave. Yet in reality I need help even more than the other people in that group.
Like you, I am also an enthusiastic photographer and I am still actively learning and getting better. I find photography very relaxing.
Do I have aspergers syndrome ? I don't know? First time I heard about it was my mental health team discussing it after my last suicide attempt. I thought, rubbish! I don't shout abuse at people. I confused it with tourettes syndrome.
The important point here is, do the general public have any idea what aspergers syndrome is ?
As for not fitting in. That is the story of my life.
I was twice asked to leave training courses because i didn't fit in with the rest of the trainees.
I always had problems at school and in employment because I don't fit in.
Now, I am having difficulty signing on universal credit, because I hate visiting the job centre and I can barely cope with being near the other people there.
Sorry for the rant.
I actually understand and feel sympathetic towards what you feel, because I have had some similar experiences.
After a lifetime of problems with not getting along with people. I have had a lot of time and practice at developing coping strategies which means I can fool many people that I am NT, up to a point. But eventually my acting breaks down and people start shunning me because they consider me strange.
Most of my problems are dealing with people and socialising. I say inappropriate things, sometimes I am am self aware at other times I haven't a clue why people get upset.
I have received help at various times with various problems and like you, sometimes the people in charge give me funny looks and eventually ask me to leave. Yet in reality I need help even more than the other people in that group.
Like you, I am also an enthusiastic photographer and I am still actively learning and getting better. I find photography very relaxing.
Do I have aspergers syndrome ? I don't know? First time I heard about it was my mental health team discussing it after my last suicide attempt. I thought, rubbish! I don't shout abuse at people. I confused it with tourettes syndrome.
The important point here is, do the general public have any idea what aspergers syndrome is ?
As for not fitting in. That is the story of my life.
I was twice asked to leave training courses because i didn't fit in with the rest of the trainees.
I always had problems at school and in employment because I don't fit in.
Now, I am having difficulty signing on universal credit, because I hate visiting the job centre and I can barely cope with being near the other people there.
Sorry for the rant.