hello my name is Rachel I haven't been on here 4 a while because I've been doing really well in sorting my life out. But over these last few days I've gone down hill rapidly. My ex which is now my best friend has stopped speaking to me after an argument we had yesterday. I almost took an overdose then stopped myself phoned Samariton then I got home an that was it I argued with my parents then they dragged me out 4 a meal with them I maniged to eat which was good. Then when i got home I went to bed but couldn't sleep so I asked to go to a&e but I rang 111 instead and they put me on Valium my dad went to out of hours to get it and I exploded again so I drank 4 cans of cinder in under 10 mins I tried cutting myself I had my mum shouting and swearing at me then I go upstairs and she tricks me into thinking the police where coming to get me but they where never called. Then my dad comes home I drink more alcohol and I pass out drunk and they just left me lying there on the cold kitchen floor. Anyway I wake up from my bed feeling rough and they throw me out of the house 4 the day i am now in work on a night shift I don't wanna be here and I dno what 2 do I just feel like no cares all they wanna do is put me on pills my parents want me gone it feels like no one understands my asd or my mental health and I just feel what's the point in living.
