hello, I am waiting for help and diagnosis and so pleased I found this group. I wanted to say something about hobbies and interests... I have always been told the things I have done over the years and even now is obsessive. To me I don't see obsessive,I see a real interest in what I do or was doing at the time.
i can remember being a child and loving horses, I had to have everything that had horses on it! Bedding, clothing, books....all of it. Out in shops with my parents as a child I could not leave something horse related on a shelf in a shop... It had to come with me. Then one day my parents took me to a riding stables, I spent all my time in there! Before school, after school weekends...and lived in my riding clothes, would not take them off. I was told I smelled like a horse.. Did not bother me I liked it. When I moved some years later I was distraught I can't hold not go to the stables anymore, it upset me for ages. Then one day I just did not want to be around anything to do with horses, my mum had to empty my room of everything horsy as I refused to look at it all.
that was as a child...then growing up I got fixated in books, Stephen King books. I needed them, all of them, I liked the look, feel and smell of them...they had to be new, no second hand ones. I did not read them, I have never read a book in my life, I struggle with that with having dyslexia, dyspraxia and dyscalculia. I just cannot get into a book, its just words and I cannot make the conection with the story. I cannot picture things in my head either so reading books just does not work for me... I later found out that I am a kinaesthetic learner so makes perfect sense! I think collecting books was my way of looking normal and trying to fit in as I knew people that read and collected books. Silly I know but I want so much to fit in and be accepted.
there have been lots of other things I get fixated on, when this happens I cannot stop thinking about it and need to interact with it, the books, I used to just feel and look at th covers...moving them on the shelf.
Has anyone else been like this? I guess I just want to feel accepted here too...
