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Im not really sure what is wrong with me at the moment i just feel weird i cant really explain it im just all over the place things annoy me when they shouldnt that not out of the ordinary but it does seem to be more frequent im just at that point in my life where i dont what to wake up in the morning. my life is pretty boring i like gaming but just cant seem to enjoy them anymore im trying to find things to keep me busy but nothing seems to work.i used to be unable to leave the house and talk to people out of the house and i was basicaly mute until i was fifteen i never even talked to family that much .Its only in the last year i started talking to family alot to the point that i think i annoy them just by talking to much. Ive only be able to talk to strangers in this way in the last couple of days. with my anger problems i freak out get really angry if someone gets violent with me and i have worries that i might hurt someone one day so i always dislike putting myself out into world. i just cant stand the things that seem to be unavoidable as someone  with asd. im currently seeing a doctor for depression and that seem like it has taking ages to get nowhere but the fact i can talk is something the me of a year couldnt do so i just dont know. i dont even really Know what i expect of the putting up this message but i just felt like doing it. I have had thoughts of suicide but i dont want to end my life. it just feels like im waiting for some magic wand to be waved and things to get better. i just dont know what to do to make my life better. sorry for the depressing message but i just feel like maybe someone might have an answer.  

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  • PGK, Tom is so right when he says it's important to talk to vent your feelings, whether it's on here or with other people in your life.

    There is nothing worse than feeling isolated when you are depressed and hopeless because you don't feel you can share your problems with anyone outside of yourself. I have felt like you at times in the past, although now I think I have a more resilient attitude, which I think comes with age and experience.

    Nobody can wave a magic wand to make your problems dissolve, PGK, but the only thing you can do is accept you have these feelings and thoughts and share them with others. I think it's always better to get your thoughts out in the open because this way, they get put into a kind of 'storage box' where you can re-visit and look at them. Over time, you see these stored thoughts change, which serves as a kind of self-monitoring excercise leading, hopefully, to an improvement in your condition. 

    This is really similiar to keeping a diary, i.e, getting your thoughts and feelings out 'there', so to speak, and it can allow you to reflect and look back at yourself as if you were a separate observer.

    But the worse thing you can do is bottle your feelings up and keep them within yourself because this way, they will just fester and magnify. So it is very important to keep contact with anyone that can be a sounding board because it allows you to share them, which lessens their power over you.

    It's going to take time, PGK, but if you try to change your approach a little bit you will eventually see the benefits. 

    The old adage 'a problem shared is a problem halved' has a lot of truth to it.

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  • PGK, Tom is so right when he says it's important to talk to vent your feelings, whether it's on here or with other people in your life.

    There is nothing worse than feeling isolated when you are depressed and hopeless because you don't feel you can share your problems with anyone outside of yourself. I have felt like you at times in the past, although now I think I have a more resilient attitude, which I think comes with age and experience.

    Nobody can wave a magic wand to make your problems dissolve, PGK, but the only thing you can do is accept you have these feelings and thoughts and share them with others. I think it's always better to get your thoughts out in the open because this way, they get put into a kind of 'storage box' where you can re-visit and look at them. Over time, you see these stored thoughts change, which serves as a kind of self-monitoring excercise leading, hopefully, to an improvement in your condition. 

    This is really similiar to keeping a diary, i.e, getting your thoughts and feelings out 'there', so to speak, and it can allow you to reflect and look back at yourself as if you were a separate observer.

    But the worse thing you can do is bottle your feelings up and keep them within yourself because this way, they will just fester and magnify. So it is very important to keep contact with anyone that can be a sounding board because it allows you to share them, which lessens their power over you.

    It's going to take time, PGK, but if you try to change your approach a little bit you will eventually see the benefits. 

    The old adage 'a problem shared is a problem halved' has a lot of truth to it.

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