Couple of questions

Hi, recombinantsocks

The issues that I face are mainly social ones, predominantly around meeting new people and engaging with them. I often feel anxious in situations where I just shouldn't like asking a customer assistant a question, I find myself preparing what I'm going to say in my head. This spans over several things such as interviews and general job hunting because of my social skills and my lack of belief in them if a job description lists 'Strong communication skills' It will either put me off dramatically or entirely. I'll admit that it could be other things wrong such as generalised anxiety.

The reasons I know its in social situations is when I went for my driving test I was not nervous the only nervous part for me was meeting my examiner and my driving instructor for the first time, the rest I found enjoyable. 

Another example of this is if I am out with my friends and they know someone else and they end up sitting with us then I will not initate a conversation with them. I would much rather sit in silence. I will often mention things that are completely unreleated to the conversation that we are having or simply not participate at all. 

Interviews are a nightmare I have a huge build up of anxiety days before I go to them and that's if I actually get there in the first place. If I manage to get myself in an interview, then I really struggle to sell myself to somebody I would much prefer a practical assessment of my skills rather than a social one. Eye contact is something I find uncomfortable just talking to my parents I refrain from making eye contact with them or my friends. If I don't go to them well it leads me to feeling depressed about job hunting and generally life. 

Other behaviours I have are: 

• I have connections with meaningless objects, the worst one I can think of is a peice of paper that has nothing on but I have kept it for a couple of years therefor I don't want to throw it out. I have purposely kept broken items for no expainable reason.
• I couldn't tie my shoe laces till year 9 (14 years old) I still am bad at it or ride a bike until I was 12 years old, my hand writing when I was younger was awful and unreadable.
• If something happens to me particuarly bad I will dwell on it for days or even weeks at a time and will analayze fine details of it and what went wrong.
• After some conversations with people I will go over what I send and if I think what I said was weird/strange even though its perfectly normal. I did this the other day when I said hello to my friend.
• I don't particuarly have a routine as such but if I make a mental note of me wanting to go out and don't do it I will get extremely fustrated and annoyed.
• I generally notice sounds and patterns quite quickly and I often point them out but nobody can hear it or see it.

The reason I would like a diagnosis or atleast seek one is closure, I'm aware I have these issues and when I started reading about autism it made me feel comfortable almost like I understand why I am like this. 

I am going to aplogize in advance, if there are any spelling errors as I am dyslexic I do try my best to correct these.

Hi, recombinantsocks

The issues that I face are mainly social ones, predominantly around meeting new people and engaging with them. I often feel anxious in situations where I just shouldn't like asking a customer assistant a question, I find myself preparing what I'm going to say in my head. This spans over several things such as interviews and general job hunting because of my social skills and my lack of belief in them if a job description lists 'Strong communication skills' It will either put me off dramatically or entirely. I'll admit that it could be other things wrong such as generalised anxiety.

The reasons I know its in social situations is when I went for my driving test I was not nervous the only nervous part for me was meeting my examiner and my driving instructor for the first time, the rest I found enjoyable. 

Another example of this is if I am out with my friends and they know someone else and they end up sitting with us then I will not initate a conversation with them. I would much rather sit in silence. I will often mention things that are completely unreleated to the conversation that we are having or simply not participate at all. 

Interviews are a nightmare I have a huge build up of anxiety days before I go to them and that's if I actually get there in the first place. If I manage to get myself in an interview, then I really struggle to sell myself to somebody I would much prefer a practical assessment of my skills rather than a social one. Eye contact is something I find uncomfortable just talking to my parents I refrain from making eye contact with them or my friends. If I don't go to them well it leads me to feeling depressed about job hunting and generally life. 

Other behaviours I have are: 

• I have connections with meaningless objects, the worst one I can think of is a peice of paper that has nothing on but I have kept it for a couple of years therefor I don't want to throw it out. I have purposely kept broken items for no expainable reason.
• I couldn't tie my shoe laces till year 9 (14 years old) I still am bad at it or ride a bike until I was 12 years old, my hand writing when I was younger was awful and unreadable.
• If something happens to me particuarly bad I will dwell on it for days or even weeks at a time and will analayze fine details of it and what went wrong.
• After some conversations with people I will go over what I send and if I think what I said was weird/strange even though its perfectly normal. I did this the other day when I said hello to my friend.
• I don't particuarly have a routine as such but if I make a mental note of me wanting to go out and don't do it I will get extremely fustrated and annoyed.
• I generally notice sounds and patterns quite quickly and I often point them out but nobody can hear it or see it.

The reason I would like a diagnosis or atleast seek one is closure, I'm aware I have these issues and when I started reading about autism it made me feel comfortable almost like I understand why I am like this. 

I am going to aplogize in advance, if there are any spelling errors as I am dyslexic I do try my best to correct these.