Hate myself

Really hate myself I hate my autism I hate my life I feel like I've been cursed. Feel like ending it and that everyone's against me. my name is rachel I'm 24 years old and have Asperger syndrome. I feel like a bad person my boyfriend hates me and so do his family. Right now I feel like bella from twilight new moon when she loses Edward I feel like I have a huge whole in my heart that won't go away. When my boyfriend told me he loves me but can't handle a relationship right now my life ended. I just wish I could run up to him massive hug and everything will be ok but sadly life don't work like that.

  • Really Gd news he rang me earlier and  meeting up soon to talk but sadly we just friends for now but I disided to make some changes in my life new hair style bit of make up smarter clothing etc. And every night before bed 30 mins of music. What music do you like 

  • Hi livvy time is hard I was proud of my diagnosis and my boyfriend Chris was so proud of me to me he was more than a boyfriend he was my best friend I do go to a groups i also go around schools and share my views on disabilities etc now I hate myself. on monday my boyfriend was arrested cos I had a massive melt down now cos of that we hit rock bottom.