Appointment with my local Mental Health Team

I got a letter through with an appointment to see my local mental health team at the end of February. I haven't been given anything to fill out for depression or anxiety so they can decide if Im worth treating. I actually have an appointment with a clinical psychologist.

Im mostly sure from what was said at my GP's appointment, that this isn't going to be for Autism or anything, this is just going to be an initial chat and examine some things - social anxiety, aspergers maybe, any one of the number of different options.

I've been trying to discuss with people around me some of the things that affect me, and frustratingly, many turn around and say, oh, that's normal - many people are like that.

Really? So normal people bite their nails, pick their nose and eat it, pluck their hair, walk round the block twice because they don't have confidence to go into a venue, find it hard to ask questions, find it difficult in a group, find it difficult to approach people, don't have a girlfriend, still live with parents? That's about 1/100th of everything I've got written down elsewhere. Im not getting into the contents of that.

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  • At one time I thought I may have been bipolar myself. I always just fly under the radar.

    Something funny happened today. I say funny, at the time it wasn't. I wanted to speak to someone, give them a gift. But she was busy talking to other people. She didn't say two words to me today. So there was the desperation to go and speak to her, generating upset and anxiety, together with uncertainty as to whether I should be doing that, whether I've stepped over a mark, got too close.

    I don't know why, but I left. I just text her and she said she wanted to speak to me. She was talking to someone, turned around, and I was gone! I can leave somewhere and not be noticed. It's incredible.

    I used to blame other people for not noticing. But Im beginning to understand that I need to approach people, which is going to be difficult, and I have a problem doing that. So I've just told her that Im shy and have some social issues, I wanted to speak to her, but she seemed busy and I wasn't sure. 

    I just feel brilliant right now. Im listening to myself, Im acknowledging, Im taking ownership. While I may not be ready to acknowledge the full truth yet (because I have to wait for diagnosis) Im at least making progress in acknowledging my symptoms. It's almost liberating and I feel really positive and happy about it. It's like a weight has been lifted.

    I've also heard that Aspies prefer friendships of the opposite sex?

    I always seeming to recall preferring the company of women and being able to relate to them better. Wow, theres another thing. I've got a degree of interaction with men, and over the years, I've learned Im not supposed to be friends with women, especially married women. But even now, I gravitate towards women. Oh well, there's something else.

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  • At one time I thought I may have been bipolar myself. I always just fly under the radar.

    Something funny happened today. I say funny, at the time it wasn't. I wanted to speak to someone, give them a gift. But she was busy talking to other people. She didn't say two words to me today. So there was the desperation to go and speak to her, generating upset and anxiety, together with uncertainty as to whether I should be doing that, whether I've stepped over a mark, got too close.

    I don't know why, but I left. I just text her and she said she wanted to speak to me. She was talking to someone, turned around, and I was gone! I can leave somewhere and not be noticed. It's incredible.

    I used to blame other people for not noticing. But Im beginning to understand that I need to approach people, which is going to be difficult, and I have a problem doing that. So I've just told her that Im shy and have some social issues, I wanted to speak to her, but she seemed busy and I wasn't sure. 

    I just feel brilliant right now. Im listening to myself, Im acknowledging, Im taking ownership. While I may not be ready to acknowledge the full truth yet (because I have to wait for diagnosis) Im at least making progress in acknowledging my symptoms. It's almost liberating and I feel really positive and happy about it. It's like a weight has been lifted.

    I've also heard that Aspies prefer friendships of the opposite sex?

    I always seeming to recall preferring the company of women and being able to relate to them better. Wow, theres another thing. I've got a degree of interaction with men, and over the years, I've learned Im not supposed to be friends with women, especially married women. But even now, I gravitate towards women. Oh well, there's something else.

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