Appointment with my local Mental Health Team

I got a letter through with an appointment to see my local mental health team at the end of February. I haven't been given anything to fill out for depression or anxiety so they can decide if Im worth treating. I actually have an appointment with a clinical psychologist.

Im mostly sure from what was said at my GP's appointment, that this isn't going to be for Autism or anything, this is just going to be an initial chat and examine some things - social anxiety, aspergers maybe, any one of the number of different options.

I've been trying to discuss with people around me some of the things that affect me, and frustratingly, many turn around and say, oh, that's normal - many people are like that.

Really? So normal people bite their nails, pick their nose and eat it, pluck their hair, walk round the block twice because they don't have confidence to go into a venue, find it hard to ask questions, find it difficult in a group, find it difficult to approach people, don't have a girlfriend, still live with parents? That's about 1/100th of everything I've got written down elsewhere. Im not getting into the contents of that.

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  • Now when you say "leading you up the garden path" are you talking in terms of which diagnosis fits, or are you talking about all this rumination? In context, I'd say you're talking more about the rumination.

    I would never have asked that before, I'd just take what you said and then try and work out the context.

    I guess my problem is despite the list, I haven't been sent for assessment by my GP. Im going to see a psychologist who might be looking at things from another angle.

    There's several hurdles there. First there's the psychologist, who the previous poster says may well come in with their agenda and understanding of who you are. Secondly there's me. Im the biggest obstacle. I don't know who I am. I don't know my emotions. I will say I don't do xyz because Im scared of embarrassment. But that's not true. I've been hiding all this time. I will not be honest with the psychologist, I will self-regulate, I will limit, I will keep everything under wraps, I will minimalise, trivialise and dismiss any issues instead of being open. The written word will be my strongest case to say everything that I want to say through my fingers rather than hoping my anxiety gives out long enough for me to get the words out.

    I don't know what I am, who I am. Im not going to self diagnose. But this may be my one chance to convince someone else that it may be worth looking at something. I just want to make sure I get everything out there so I can get the most appropriate help for whatever my circumstances are.

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  • Now when you say "leading you up the garden path" are you talking in terms of which diagnosis fits, or are you talking about all this rumination? In context, I'd say you're talking more about the rumination.

    I would never have asked that before, I'd just take what you said and then try and work out the context.

    I guess my problem is despite the list, I haven't been sent for assessment by my GP. Im going to see a psychologist who might be looking at things from another angle.

    There's several hurdles there. First there's the psychologist, who the previous poster says may well come in with their agenda and understanding of who you are. Secondly there's me. Im the biggest obstacle. I don't know who I am. I don't know my emotions. I will say I don't do xyz because Im scared of embarrassment. But that's not true. I've been hiding all this time. I will not be honest with the psychologist, I will self-regulate, I will limit, I will keep everything under wraps, I will minimalise, trivialise and dismiss any issues instead of being open. The written word will be my strongest case to say everything that I want to say through my fingers rather than hoping my anxiety gives out long enough for me to get the words out.

    I don't know what I am, who I am. Im not going to self diagnose. But this may be my one chance to convince someone else that it may be worth looking at something. I just want to make sure I get everything out there so I can get the most appropriate help for whatever my circumstances are.

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