Analysis of Test

The more I read of your posts, the less doubt I have that are affected by autism.

Your desire for clarity and to have things categorised as true or false fits.

Your use of rules and protocols is classic, normal people develop intuition and we try to get by with laborious rules and 'manual calculations'.

The length of the document is already excessive because a doctor won't have time to sit down and read it but it is indicative of your attention to detail so its existence and detail is evidence of the condition. The content may also be relevant but it may be hard to read and decipher. (Been there and done that myself!)

We often have the urge to tell everyone about it - I did that and probably told too many people - it is very important to you but perhaps not to everyone else. People are not well informed about it and may well react with prejudice and may recoil away from you as a result.

The diagnostic professionals may want to involve your parents because evidence of your behaviour as a child is relevant to distinguishing a lifelong condition like autism from an acquired mental health condition. There are other threads on the forum which have discussed this in depth. You don't have to do anything in preparation now but it may be worth reading around some of those threads for our thoughts on how to handle it.

Have a good day and try to stop doubting yourself and criticising your situation. We can be very critical, of ourselves and others, and it is worth trying to relax a bit and to do more analysis (e.g. of other people and how their minds work) and less wading in with opinions. Whether you get a diagnosis or not won't alter the fact that you are what and who you are and it is harder to change that and fit in with other people's standards than to conform by behaving in ways that aren't natural for you. If you have ever wondered about the nature vs nurture debate then you will find yourself as much more programmed by nature than you might have imagined.

The more I read of your posts, the less doubt I have that are affected by autism.

Your desire for clarity and to have things categorised as true or false fits.

Your use of rules and protocols is classic, normal people develop intuition and we try to get by with laborious rules and 'manual calculations'.

The length of the document is already excessive because a doctor won't have time to sit down and read it but it is indicative of your attention to detail so its existence and detail is evidence of the condition. The content may also be relevant but it may be hard to read and decipher. (Been there and done that myself!)

We often have the urge to tell everyone about it - I did that and probably told too many people - it is very important to you but perhaps not to everyone else. People are not well informed about it and may well react with prejudice and may recoil away from you as a result.

The diagnostic professionals may want to involve your parents because evidence of your behaviour as a child is relevant to distinguishing a lifelong condition like autism from an acquired mental health condition. There are other threads on the forum which have discussed this in depth. You don't have to do anything in preparation now but it may be worth reading around some of those threads for our thoughts on how to handle it.

Have a good day and try to stop doubting yourself and criticising your situation. We can be very critical, of ourselves and others, and it is worth trying to relax a bit and to do more analysis (e.g. of other people and how their minds work) and less wading in with opinions. Whether you get a diagnosis or not won't alter the fact that you are what and who you are and it is harder to change that and fit in with other people's standards than to conform by behaving in ways that aren't natural for you. If you have ever wondered about the nature vs nurture debate then you will find yourself as much more programmed by nature than you might have imagined.