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Undiagnosed4321

Hi,

I've signed up here because this community seems so much more populated, so Im sure of an answer.

Far be it from me to be a hypochondriac, but every time someone talks to me about aspergers, I think 'that sounds like me'. I thoughts I'd run the online tests and they came out very interest.

I don't have all the symptoms, but I feel it is the closest match and Im looking to go to my GP so I have somewhere to start.

The things that don't seem to match with me though, is that Im good with eye contact (as far as I know - I remember playing the "who blinks first" game at school), Im good (as far as I know) with detecting emotion - but I'll tell you more about that later, I'm happy with change and don't have routines. I also have a desire to be social - though that may have come about due to starting to go to Church and learning different priorities.

However I do have a desire to be in control, my eye contact is different with different people. My social skills are poor, I don't invite anyone anywhere. Most of my adult life, my repertoire when talking to others, has been jokes, tv quotes, and relating to people by talking about my interests. I don't connect very well with other people as I just can't think of any questions.

The AQ test is a nightmare, do I enjoy social chit chat? Define enjoy, define chit chat? I like being with my friends. So do I prefer the theater or museum? No idea. My friends invite me to the theater, so I go. Haven't been to a museum in ages. I don't know if I would enjoy it. Mostly I want to keep to myself though. I have no special skills. 

I have problem with emotion and memory recall.

So. My test results.

AQ between 31 and 41 depending on how I interpret the questions.

EQ 22

SQ 60

FQ 71

Eyes in the Mind (looking at the answers) 27

Eyes in the Mind (not looking at the answers) 14

AS you can see AQ and EQ are the anomaly ones here. Whether SQ and FQ could be learned behaviour?

The interesting one is the reading the mind in the eyes test.

If I do it while looking at the answers, I get 27. Normal NT score. If I do it while looking at the eyes and trying to guess the emotion, I get something which doesn't even exist in the choices. Mostly I'll get Happy, Sad, and "that face makes me feel angry", I might extrapolate a couple of more words like, guilty looking, concerned, concerned about something... So without looking at the answers, I get 14. When I uncover the answers, I quickly work out which one it is. Thre's a few faces where I'll get "Happy", there's only one happy answer but it's say Flirting with three negative emotions, it's clearly not flirting though so I actually end up putting the emotion on the face from the choices. Very quickly.

I have absolute zero idea what any of these actually mean.

Can you offer any interpretation?

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  • Thanks both. 

    I think Im ready to ask those questions of myself. It's what led to me doing this. I just knew I had to do something and started exploring and here I am.

    Im still not ready for exposure until I know. I have mentioned something to my sister and a couple of close friends that Im exploring and they're really supportive. A couple of them have even said "I wouldn't be surprised, makes sense". 

    The people I dread telling in terms of a diagnosis are my parents. I don't think their attitude towards mental health is particularly good, and I think there will be judgement, disparaging comments, even disbelief.

    I don't particularly want to go through it without some degree of certainty. Still the logic inside me said "you don't do x and you don't do y, it can't be. it can't". I still feel a fraud and expect it to come back negative and I'll be a confirmed fake and wasted your time.

    Im going to struggle with patience. Im going to need something to obsess about in the meantime.

    It's still interesting looking around me at the other normal people and seeing how dull they look almost. They're still, and lifeless. They sit completely still, almost motionless, not fidgeting, not moving, every appendage firmly rooted to the same spot.

    If it is AS, why has no one in my history picked up on it? Ever? 

    Have I suffered meltdowns? I wouldn't know. I'd like to say no, Im pretty sure I haven't. But then I don't know what they look like, or what they feel like. Same goes for stimming. It's possible I have, but because I don't know them as that, then I don't recognise them as being that.

    Do you find you develop different rules and different protocols for the different people and situations in your life and you adjust your behaviour to fit in to each one of them so you find your friends are all compartmentalised and if they ever met each other you would't know which ruleset to follow. 

    By the way, how much more can I add to my fifteen page document?

    Thanks.
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  • Thanks both. 

    I think Im ready to ask those questions of myself. It's what led to me doing this. I just knew I had to do something and started exploring and here I am.

    Im still not ready for exposure until I know. I have mentioned something to my sister and a couple of close friends that Im exploring and they're really supportive. A couple of them have even said "I wouldn't be surprised, makes sense". 

    The people I dread telling in terms of a diagnosis are my parents. I don't think their attitude towards mental health is particularly good, and I think there will be judgement, disparaging comments, even disbelief.

    I don't particularly want to go through it without some degree of certainty. Still the logic inside me said "you don't do x and you don't do y, it can't be. it can't". I still feel a fraud and expect it to come back negative and I'll be a confirmed fake and wasted your time.

    Im going to struggle with patience. Im going to need something to obsess about in the meantime.

    It's still interesting looking around me at the other normal people and seeing how dull they look almost. They're still, and lifeless. They sit completely still, almost motionless, not fidgeting, not moving, every appendage firmly rooted to the same spot.

    If it is AS, why has no one in my history picked up on it? Ever? 

    Have I suffered meltdowns? I wouldn't know. I'd like to say no, Im pretty sure I haven't. But then I don't know what they look like, or what they feel like. Same goes for stimming. It's possible I have, but because I don't know them as that, then I don't recognise them as being that.

    Do you find you develop different rules and different protocols for the different people and situations in your life and you adjust your behaviour to fit in to each one of them so you find your friends are all compartmentalised and if they ever met each other you would't know which ruleset to follow. 

    By the way, how much more can I add to my fifteen page document?

    Thanks.
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