Analysis of Test

Hi,

I've signed up here because this community seems so much more populated, so Im sure of an answer.

Far be it from me to be a hypochondriac, but every time someone talks to me about aspergers, I think 'that sounds like me'. I thoughts I'd run the online tests and they came out very interest.

I don't have all the symptoms, but I feel it is the closest match and Im looking to go to my GP so I have somewhere to start.

The things that don't seem to match with me though, is that Im good with eye contact (as far as I know - I remember playing the "who blinks first" game at school), Im good (as far as I know) with detecting emotion - but I'll tell you more about that later, I'm happy with change and don't have routines. I also have a desire to be social - though that may have come about due to starting to go to Church and learning different priorities.

However I do have a desire to be in control, my eye contact is different with different people. My social skills are poor, I don't invite anyone anywhere. Most of my adult life, my repertoire when talking to others, has been jokes, tv quotes, and relating to people by talking about my interests. I don't connect very well with other people as I just can't think of any questions.

The AQ test is a nightmare, do I enjoy social chit chat? Define enjoy, define chit chat? I like being with my friends. So do I prefer the theater or museum? No idea. My friends invite me to the theater, so I go. Haven't been to a museum in ages. I don't know if I would enjoy it. Mostly I want to keep to myself though. I have no special skills. 

I have problem with emotion and memory recall.

So. My test results.

AQ between 31 and 41 depending on how I interpret the questions.

EQ 22

SQ 60

FQ 71

Eyes in the Mind (looking at the answers) 27

Eyes in the Mind (not looking at the answers) 14

AS you can see AQ and EQ are the anomaly ones here. Whether SQ and FQ could be learned behaviour?

The interesting one is the reading the mind in the eyes test.

If I do it while looking at the answers, I get 27. Normal NT score. If I do it while looking at the eyes and trying to guess the emotion, I get something which doesn't even exist in the choices. Mostly I'll get Happy, Sad, and "that face makes me feel angry", I might extrapolate a couple of more words like, guilty looking, concerned, concerned about something... So without looking at the answers, I get 14. When I uncover the answers, I quickly work out which one it is. Thre's a few faces where I'll get "Happy", there's only one happy answer but it's say Flirting with three negative emotions, it's clearly not flirting though so I actually end up putting the emotion on the face from the choices. Very quickly.

I have absolute zero idea what any of these actually mean.

Can you offer any interpretation?

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  • Good question. I don't know. Seems like the most logical place to turn because I don't know where else. I wouldn't self diagnose because I don't want to be a fraud.

    Im not going to lie, by all accounts, I have a good life. I have a job, a car, friends, and Im debt free.

    But Im going nowhere. After 40 years though, I don't really know who I am anymore. I don't know what makes me happy. I tolerate things. I fit in. I exist to make others happy. I go through periods of depression every couple of years and have moderate anxiety from time to time. 

    I've had the same job for 12 years, I still live with my parents, can't make decisions and always seek the advice of others. I don't think I am suited to my job, but I don't know what else to do. Im holding on, just. I rarely invite my friends out. They invite me out, and I accept. But there's been times I've actually got outside the venue, can't confirm where they are, and I've gone home. I bought a ticket for a Church event a few years back, circled the block twice trying to muster up courage to go in, and I came out. I struggle to connect with friends and acquaintances. I have a spreadsheet so I can work out if people are friends. I've struggled with some obsession, one of which almost destroyed me. Im trying to push myself to giving more talks, and I've stood at the front of a group of people, two minutes in, my hands are shaking and I can't look up. There's so many other things.

    Im shy, I have no confidence, no motivation, I can't get out of the rut. I don't know what to do.

    When I look over my past, I can see something that wasn't right, times when I was exceptionally different, something that's holding me back, something. What that something is, I don't know. The answer as to what that something is, is what will give up the key I think to unlocking the rest of my life. All I have at the moment, is some weird AQ, EQ, SQ and FQ tests and a familiarity almost when people talk about aspergers (or asd).

    I've had enough wearing a mask. I want to take that mask off, find out who I am, what I am, and learn to love me and what I want to do again. 

    Does that make sense?

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  • Good question. I don't know. Seems like the most logical place to turn because I don't know where else. I wouldn't self diagnose because I don't want to be a fraud.

    Im not going to lie, by all accounts, I have a good life. I have a job, a car, friends, and Im debt free.

    But Im going nowhere. After 40 years though, I don't really know who I am anymore. I don't know what makes me happy. I tolerate things. I fit in. I exist to make others happy. I go through periods of depression every couple of years and have moderate anxiety from time to time. 

    I've had the same job for 12 years, I still live with my parents, can't make decisions and always seek the advice of others. I don't think I am suited to my job, but I don't know what else to do. Im holding on, just. I rarely invite my friends out. They invite me out, and I accept. But there's been times I've actually got outside the venue, can't confirm where they are, and I've gone home. I bought a ticket for a Church event a few years back, circled the block twice trying to muster up courage to go in, and I came out. I struggle to connect with friends and acquaintances. I have a spreadsheet so I can work out if people are friends. I've struggled with some obsession, one of which almost destroyed me. Im trying to push myself to giving more talks, and I've stood at the front of a group of people, two minutes in, my hands are shaking and I can't look up. There's so many other things.

    Im shy, I have no confidence, no motivation, I can't get out of the rut. I don't know what to do.

    When I look over my past, I can see something that wasn't right, times when I was exceptionally different, something that's holding me back, something. What that something is, I don't know. The answer as to what that something is, is what will give up the key I think to unlocking the rest of my life. All I have at the moment, is some weird AQ, EQ, SQ and FQ tests and a familiarity almost when people talk about aspergers (or asd).

    I've had enough wearing a mask. I want to take that mask off, find out who I am, what I am, and learn to love me and what I want to do again. 

    Does that make sense?

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