i guess my daydreaming takes me away. i put myself in situations in which i have more control over, or would rather be in. real life kind of overwhelms me, i find it frustrating that i do not understand what is going on around me, so the daydreaming helps.
i fixate on things as well, so much so that i am unaware of things or people around me. it is one of the things my wife finds very frustrating. she can talk to me and i ignore here. but i am not ignoring her, i am completely unaware of her presence. i am off in another place. it can happen when i am watching a movie, or cooking or reading. i tend to live in my head, sometimes this is good others not so much. i used to fight it more before i was aware of my aspergers, but now i tend to go with it. i am more at ease with it. it is just one of the things that make me who i am, and when i struggle with it an and try to be more like people expect me to be, (which i do even though i feel i shouldnt) i usually end up panicing and getting stressed.
i guess what i am trying to say is that i am autistic. i am different, not wrong. to be happy i need to do things a certain way, and live a certain way. if that means living in a world in my head, if i am not hurting anyone else, why should it matter.
i guess my daydreaming takes me away. i put myself in situations in which i have more control over, or would rather be in. real life kind of overwhelms me, i find it frustrating that i do not understand what is going on around me, so the daydreaming helps.
i fixate on things as well, so much so that i am unaware of things or people around me. it is one of the things my wife finds very frustrating. she can talk to me and i ignore here. but i am not ignoring her, i am completely unaware of her presence. i am off in another place. it can happen when i am watching a movie, or cooking or reading. i tend to live in my head, sometimes this is good others not so much. i used to fight it more before i was aware of my aspergers, but now i tend to go with it. i am more at ease with it. it is just one of the things that make me who i am, and when i struggle with it an and try to be more like people expect me to be, (which i do even though i feel i shouldnt) i usually end up panicing and getting stressed.
i guess what i am trying to say is that i am autistic. i am different, not wrong. to be happy i need to do things a certain way, and live a certain way. if that means living in a world in my head, if i am not hurting anyone else, why should it matter.
