Hit rock bottom.please help.....

Hi. ...

I will try keep it short.  Just really need some support

First time in my life .   I was scared of my 14year old son.

He was in a rage.....normal unfortunately...slowly slowly months at

A time getting help.too long go into it....Just say his got autism and

Major anger issues.

Well after being very insulting to his sister, I over heard and stepped

In. Than he went full on  at me .....He called me things u wouldn't

Call your worst enemy.....Than he went to hit me......not unusual

But he wanted too....He ment it...He went to hit me....I stopped him. But really wanted too.....I'm horrified......am so soul destroy

His thrown stuff before....but he wanted to hurt me....

If i ask for help ......Will he get taken away from us ?????

In the end I had to call his dad upstairs to help....

I'm no push over.....but I'm so disappointed.......I'm begging

For anger help for him.....as I love him,with all my heart....this stops now tho