hi my sons assesment is nearing and im starting to get nervous although ive been told what will happen it still does not take my nervousness away as its the not knowing my baby is only 2 and half i wish we did not have to go trough this i spoke to my partner the other day i asked him how is going to feel at the end of it all his more worried about my reaction ive been seeing a counciler too she has seen me and my son a few times now she thinks he has autism too ive spoke to her that what do we do if the test comes back and says he has not got autism where do we go from there she said she would be ver surprised if they came back and said he has not got autism i feel like ive already accepted it but need to here it from them i need to see it in black and white i thimk i already know in my heart how im going to react im going to want to cry and scream and shout tell them they got it wrong ill probbaly want to run out of there to my sons nursery and go and get him i tell him everysingle day that i love hima nd no matter what happens i will do everything in my power to help him whatever life trows at us sorry for this im just so emotional right now that this is the only way i can get it out my son is non verbal and communicates with hand gestures he is so smart and inteligent i hope when he does start nursey that it mite help him with his speech but it is what it is i think telling family and friends will be hardest ive already said to my partner if they cant accept it or are too stubborn and say stupid stuff i will quite happily cut them out of our lives i need people that will surport us not judge
