New year

My year already off to a bad start haha. Ended up going insane up for 3 days no food no sleep. I feel like no one cares about me sometimes. My family don't talk to me. They don't love me. I think it's because of the autism that I have. Oh well. I am a 25 grown man I must be my own father from now on. Ended up crying in my apartment staircase. So lonely. I feel like the world hates me too. I don't know. Is there a way to get through these hard times? I am not sure. I do not know what the future holds at all. I cannot say that my future or your future will be good or bad because we do not know unless we have a time machine. Suppose there are others like me who spend Christmas and new year alone

Bananatropics26 said:

Suppose there are others like me who spend Christmas and new year alone

I looked up AI and they reckon 1.8 million. It took me years to enjoy being alone - when I got to the conclusion that I enjoyed my own company and that others triggered stress in me. 

Bananatropics26 said:

My family don't talk to me. They don't love me.

My family were like that - turned out both father and brother were autistic too. I 'divorced' them years ago - you CAN divorce family but better give them a chance first, perhaps by sending a letter of how you feel. 

Bananatropics26 said:

I feel like the world hates me to

You don't know how the whole world feels! Look how many friends you have here! Start by developing your lifestyle: join clubs with like-minded hobbies and interests. Perhaps go to your doctor and see if there is counselling available, or get online counselling [but first lookup reviews from pukka organisations]. Joining clubs will help you feel less lonely and reorient your mind toward positivity. Good luck and a happier new year!

Bananatropics26 said:

Suppose there are others like me who spend Christmas and new year alone

I looked up AI and they reckon 1.8 million. It took me years to enjoy being alone - when I got to the conclusion that I enjoyed my own company and that others triggered stress in me. 

Bananatropics26 said:

My family don't talk to me. They don't love me.

My family were like that - turned out both father and brother were autistic too. I 'divorced' them years ago - you CAN divorce family but better give them a chance first, perhaps by sending a letter of how you feel. 

Bananatropics26 said:

I feel like the world hates me to

You don't know how the whole world feels! Look how many friends you have here! Start by developing your lifestyle: join clubs with like-minded hobbies and interests. Perhaps go to your doctor and see if there is counselling available, or get online counselling [but first lookup reviews from pukka organisations]. Joining clubs will help you feel less lonely and reorient your mind toward positivity. Good luck and a happier new year!

End of the day it ain't my fault I have autism and it ain't my fault my parents didn't want me. I was an accident apparently 

U had a good new year ?

Yeh your right though. I am a bit demanding I suppose. I don't intend to be though. It's frustration that's all it is. Yeh I can be needy dunno I really need therapy I think. Dunno. For one thing I have stopped looking for an answer because maybe there isn't one. Or maybe the answer will appear at the right time who knows. I ain't saying I have a poor life but I ain't always happy either. Also helping people is cool. But the one who is needy may need something maybe they don't know what they need. But yeh they need something or else they wouldn't be needy in first place. Makes total sense to me. If your in a bad place yourself u might not be in a position to help others. So I would disagree with you in that respect. You can be nasty to someone but still be a nice person. It's all interpretation. If someone is nasty and your nasty to them back you become as nasty as them. I'm a nice person my family would tell you I'm not but that's not true. I am very kind. I know that so I don't care what anyone else thinks I am.

Bananatropics26 said:

But sitting in the house alone as I live alone doesn't help because I end up ruminating over everything.

That is EXACTLY what you're doing! When you join something this year (when things start to come back to life) don't focus on finding friends but on learning more about whatever-it-is. It took me ages to learn that when you appear needy, people are put off - even frightened. This is also the case with family. Focus on the topic not the people; share your learning and also ask for advice or information - people will like you for both things. Everyone nice likes to feel they are being helpful. Everyone nasty likes to find fault or ridicule. The nasty ones home in on those who appear isolated or depressed, so be careful to avoid them until you feel stronger. 

You have happy new year too!! I like to smoke tobacco cigarettes they calm me down and give me my dopamine fix. I know I could get sick but hey I don't enjoy anything else and also. Whether u choose to smoke or not we are all gonna meet our maker at some point I guess. It's not like non smokers are going to live forever or something 

Thanks I knew new year would be hard tho. Especially because everything shuts too over this period. So there is minimal group activities at this time of year. This is why I hate winter haha. Big fan of summer  here. Yeh your right I don't know how people feel in they're heads about me. I'm trying to stay positive all the time but some times the darkness does win! When the negative thoughts start it can be hard to shut them up. But sitting in the house alone as I live alone doesn't help because I end up ruminating over everything.