Hi.
My name is Matthew and a few years ago I was diagnosed with Autism. Since then my life has changed, in some ways for the better but also for the worst. I now, don't really go out, I worry about mine and my families health and I worry quite a lot, sometimes I don't even know what I am worrying about. It seems quite silly I know but I'm hoping others on the forums will understand what I am talking about.
The reason I am writing now is because basically I am not really happy with who I am. My mum and dad always say that they wouldn't change me for the world, but for some reason I just dislike the way that I am. When I write books I always write about a brave man, a man who goes out and a man who helps protect others - that's me writing about the man I want to be, not the man I am. I also dwell on the past, I often think back to times when I have shouted at my mum, not gone out in the car when I wanted to and lately I haven't gone to see my gran who is in a carehome.
If anyone can help me like myself more and can get me out and about in the car then I'd be very grateful. 
Regards,
Matthew.
