I'm Tired

I hate being autistic, When I was younger I would boast about it before I was even diagnosed. I don't know how I could of been so proud of it. I have barely any friends because people know, Everyone at school think I'm a freak and I don't have any real friends, I hate being alive and I feel as if the world would be better without me, but I cannot tell anyone because I don't want to upset them. I just read my EHCP draft plan and I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself, I kept tearing up as I read it because now I finally understand why people don't like me. I wish I wasn't born this way. I want to die.

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  • Dear xx_Max_xx,  

    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We are sorry to hear that you are currently going through a difficult time. It is good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.    

    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support  

    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm:https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help 

    If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service. In in England, Wales and Scotland there is now an option to speak with mental health professionals by selecting ‘option 2’ when calling NHS 111:https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/ 

    You may also find the following useful:  

    • Information on After Diagnosis - these includes resources that cover topics like 'How will I feel after receiving my autism diagnosis?' and 'Formal support following a autism diagnosis'.
    • The Know Yourself series offers resources to support autistic teenagers in understanding what being autistic means to them. 

    Help for anyone struggling to cope:

    • Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  
    • Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday) 
    • SANEline: 0300 304 7000for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day)  
    • Shout 85258:a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.  

    We hope this is helpful to you.  

    Kind regards 

    Rosie Mod  

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  • Dear xx_Max_xx,  

    Thank you for posting and telling the community what you are going through. We are sorry to hear that you are currently going through a difficult time. It is good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.    

    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support  

    The National Autistic Society does not currently operate a crisis or emergency service. We advise you to contact 999 or any of the mental health crisis lines listed on our Urgent Help Page if you are at risk of immediate harm:https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help 

    If you are not at immediate risk of harm, we would encourage you to speak to your GP or another health professional about this if you haven’t done so already. If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service. In in England, Wales and Scotland there is now an option to speak with mental health professionals by selecting ‘option 2’ when calling NHS 111:https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/ 

    You may also find the following useful:  

    • Information on After Diagnosis - these includes resources that cover topics like 'How will I feel after receiving my autism diagnosis?' and 'Formal support following a autism diagnosis'.
    • The Know Yourself series offers resources to support autistic teenagers in understanding what being autistic means to them. 

    Help for anyone struggling to cope:

    • Samaritans: Call 116 123 for free, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.  
    • Mind Infoline: 0300 1233393for information and signposting (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday) 
    • SANEline: 0300 304 7000for anyone experiencing a mental health problem or supporting someone else (4.30pm to 10.30pm, every day)  
    • Shout 85258:a free, confidential, 24/7 text messaging support service for anyone struggling to cope.  

    We hope this is helpful to you.  

    Kind regards 

    Rosie Mod  

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