Published on 12, July, 2020
My discovery journey helps me realise some things about myself. And here is what I noticed about the eye contact. While it’s uncomfortable with others, I noticed that I actually like looking into my own eyes in a mirror. I also noticed, that they are actually not blue, as I was always told. Depending on the light they change colors. I can see it in the mirror and photos. Sometimes they are blue like a lagoon sometimes grey but often also green. In the dim warm bathroom light they are green. How about others here? Do you also like looking into your own eyes in the mirror? My own eyes are the only one that don’t penetrate my soul. Others - do, and it’s painful or at least unpleasant. If anyone likes to take part in the discussion and share thoughts or experience, I will be grateful and happy.
I thought of something else. I learned that I can actually stare people down. This sounds a bit contradictory to my earlier post, but it is not.
I suppose that it is a bit like keeping your arm still for an injection, while you really want to pull it away.
I can't think when I do this. I've not done it in a long time. I worked with someone once who would stare people down as a domination tactic. He annoyed me, so I took him on. The childish thing is is that he had more respect for me after. It's just a good job, that I didn't have to speak while doing this.