Published on 12, July, 2020
I was diagnosed Autistic 3 weeks ago and I’ve only told a handful of people, I’ve put off telling my parents because I thought they wouldn’t believe me and I was right. Today my dad came to my house and we were on about secrets and as you autistic people know, we can’t lie, so I told him I had a secret and so he badgered me to tell him and I said I wanted to tell him and my mum together, but he kept pushing me and in the end I told him, he asked me what made me autistic and I explained about my social awkwardness and he just said that I was quiet. He didn’t stay much after that, which I thought was weird, would have thought he’d want to ask me lots of questions, as he was leaving he looked at my pots that were piled up and said, I guess you are gonna use this as an excuse now for being messy. He left for home and I know he would have definitely told my mum and she hasn’t bothered to phone to discuss, which I’m not too happy about. This experience has made me doubt my diagnosis and has left me feeling flat
I am sure my parents would be dismissive or mocking. I have no intentions on telling them.
On some level they must know I am different, given my weird life path and not hitting most milestones in adulthood until very late and obviously living an unusual and lonely life, but I suppose since they have never raised it with me, they must be content to let me be.
My struggles in my earlier life (when they made no attempt to help me!!!!) are a distant memory, and I've since recovered and now am able to live independently and comfortably, so they don't need to worry about me after they're gone. So why give them more trouble now.