An issue relating to my Intense Interests

Hi all,

I am slightly concerned about how intense my obsessions have been progressively getting over the past couple of years (I'm AS, by the way). Now they feel less like "intense interests" and more like, and this is the only way I am able to describe it, drug addictions with a physical component.

I write this now because my dad took me to see my favourite musical (which I am currently obsessed with) on Sunday night, and ever since we got in the car after it had finished I have been so depressed that I struggle to say anything without being on the verge of tears, I'm shaking, I'm short of breath, I'm exhausted and unable to concentrate on anything and I'm getting pangs of physical pain. The morning after, I couldn't get out of bed for crying and had to miss school. I feel lonelier than ever and my parents regret taking me because I now feel so terrible. It's worse than it has ever been but it has been getting progressively worse over more recent years. I was wondering if anyone had had similar "withdrawal symptoms" in relation to their intense interests in similar situations? And I know this isn't a professional medical website, but is this "normal" for AS?

Thank you for your time.

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  • I haven't experienced anything this severe, but I do know the sort of thing you mean - its almost the opposite of looking forward to something - instead its a looking back and realising you've already "done" the good bit and a grief that its over. Is that right?

    Maybe when you have big plans like going to see the musical, which you know you are really excited about, you could have a mini plan for shortly afterwards?  Like you could dedicate an evening to listening to the music from the show, a few days afterwards?  That would give you a smaller step down from huge (seeing the show) to nothing - it puts something in the middle which is medium sized (listening to the music) so you have two smaller step downs. 

    This is exactly the reason I don't like going on holiday from work, because the disappointment of having to come back again is the permanent state in which I find myself when I come back, and all the excitement and experience of having time off is over by the return date.  It feels like the "after" is present for longer than the "before".

    Not sure if i'm making sense but it seemed similar to me.

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  • I haven't experienced anything this severe, but I do know the sort of thing you mean - its almost the opposite of looking forward to something - instead its a looking back and realising you've already "done" the good bit and a grief that its over. Is that right?

    Maybe when you have big plans like going to see the musical, which you know you are really excited about, you could have a mini plan for shortly afterwards?  Like you could dedicate an evening to listening to the music from the show, a few days afterwards?  That would give you a smaller step down from huge (seeing the show) to nothing - it puts something in the middle which is medium sized (listening to the music) so you have two smaller step downs. 

    This is exactly the reason I don't like going on holiday from work, because the disappointment of having to come back again is the permanent state in which I find myself when I come back, and all the excitement and experience of having time off is over by the return date.  It feels like the "after" is present for longer than the "before".

    Not sure if i'm making sense but it seemed similar to me.

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