Published on 12, July, 2020
Well my post diagnosis was messy and the mute shut down and rejection of alll medical assistance was the out working of a failier of response that is typical of the mental health provisions in surrey. the few people I saw were ok and the psychiatrist did get me a step along but i was wel annoyed that his paper work was nessacary to qualify what i had been bleeting on about for years anf even now the system has let me drift off because i was traumatise dby the 40 questions it takes to get an assesment to go on the 18 month waiting list for therapy. PLEASE
So how was i exumed from my silence and driven from my pyjamas and the doldrums of indifferent failier and the contemplations of my own execution that I willing ly considered and rejected to continue what I saw as fsithful but self detructive choice to live.
Well She is called Foxy anad she is the dumped dog who escaped the battersey death nell, to become my little world of sucess on a different world view of things.
You can see her baby picture here
http://www.alldogsmatter.co.uk/?dogs-rehomed,7
I am up at 4 to keep the floor dry and when she eats I remember to, her walks and my medication go together and all in all we are a good team, I have to be the boss and eat first and have learned to shout or bark when I am not happy with realy bad behaviour, I am the one who is at the training classes she is well smart and had to go up a class.
The staff at the school responded in fine style to my iam autistic card and a few of them have first hand experience and experts in the friend and family line who would consult to help my challenges, which was overwhelming on the first day.
http://adolescentdogs.com/ have been exelent in their understanding and have been keen to help me keep a sfe and happy doe mostly I needed reassuring that i wass not breaking her in some way.
So I was lead out of the rock under which I crawled realy by a small bright inteligent Little Red Dog, called Foxy.
WB
When ther are no languages to bridge the devide it is the best of us as animals that we have in common, it is sad that we despise this beauty in ourselves as base and of no value or function, for I think it is the very antidote to all that ails us as a result of the toxicity of the life we call modern.
soothing balm, dear oaty you were the soothing balm my friend and it seems our lot to be knocked about in the relationship department when it comes to family, I have become immune to the degrees of snobbery and lack of knowing that my family are capable of and you would turn in the grave you don't have if i told my story, but this is the deal you get fine metal and stong steel when you add fire and a good beating on the anvil of life and I went way past rage years ago, mind you " come the revolution"
So my friend it is good to hear that i did good and that you could see that because that is my blind spot and I have to engage behaviour blind to its consequence and in the hope that this choice is one that delivers kindness and are with out recourse for the bad behaviour of others, ther are some advantages to being asd and having been raised by asd parents but mostly of my own making in the end.
even if this was all done without knowing a thing about it all at the time. They haven't written the books that deal with this stuff and I think it will be a long time coming.
oh to top off my week the NAS visit with the social worker and social service set up was cancelled. so no visit today. what a peach of a week.
Thanks foe the cheer and foxy is good with a unsetled day yesterday and now today we are chilling sheis the best continuity I have and a good constant focus.
her head is in for another growth spurt I think. and as miy head was just about to plain spurt we are good stable company.
I left you a message on one of your other comments about feeling low I hope it brings a smile to your face and look forward to the next yak.
We as humans are amazing and in the face of much missunderstanding capable of immence compassion. it can bo cool to be human especially if it is on your own terms and compassion is a base driver.