Published on 12, July, 2020
I love night wandering. It's unfortunate this time of year is so cold otherwise I would walk through the fields, last night however I settled for walking through my house.
During past summers I walked through the fields around my house and it looked beautiful because it's dark but still light enough to see.
At night everything is so quiet. No sounds other than the house creaking and the occasional bit of wildlife outside, often seen but never heard. I had missed this when I was away in hospital. Last year I had heard an owl hooting merrily to itself.
It's felt so natural to be back in a familiar place with these familiar sounds. I love how everything looks different in the dark as well, it's eery in a way but amazing.
I like to see the gradual transition as it begins to get lighter. Watching the sky change and brighten is an incredible sight to behold, there's so many shades changing smoothly.
I'm tired now. I was up between 1 and 2, I find it hard to sleep and at night I like to be moving around. This used to annoy my mum because she put me to bed and within the hour I was awake again. Lol. I've always loved night wandering.
I wonder if this has to do with autism or if it's just an unusual thing I do.
Night wandering (at any time of the year) isn't something I generally tend to do.
However, I do think there is something rather lovely about being outdoors at a time when it feels like the rest of the world is sleeping. Admittedly, this is largely dependent on where one happens to live. In my case, I live in a rather built-up urban area, fairly close to my town, and within walking distance of several main roads.
During the early hours of the morning, there is considerably less traffic on the roads generating noise, and the likelihood of me encountering other people is also considerably reduced. This can help to provide me with a sense of freedom, and a feeling that I am almost doing something rebellious and forbidden... even though I know I'm not.
Area is important for this. If I wasn't in the countryside I wouldn't go out at night.
Freedom, that's a good expression and that's how I feel when I do walk. It's like I'm the only person alive in the entire world, no one can hurt me.