Published on 12, July, 2020
I tried writing this a few times over the past couple days but I was having trouble but thats kind of the point of this post.
I dont talk very often out loud (unless its about my special interest and im with people im comfortable with) but online I can write wayyy more. I usually even annoy people with how much I write when I text/email/etc but the last couple days I keep trying to comment on things on here but I changed my mind and didnt send it. I think I only made 4ish comments and they were pretty short than my usual. I dont know why I cant write right now, its like I dont feel like it, mixed with I cant find the words I want. I was just wondering if anybody else has had this before and if theres a way I can get past it?
Once I spent 3 days hiding in one of the painting studios on campus while I was at college 'cause I didn't want to leave when they closed the building for the night. I wanted to keep working. After 3 days of not really eating and not speaking or interacting with anyone I left and found I could not really use language. (I had non verbal episodes like this as a child).
I felt both relieved not to have to but also scared I wouldn't be able to - and I would have to to eat. I had no one to really turn to. this is the early 70s.
I pushed past it. Had to. Made a point of and became somewhat obsessed with language and writing, speaking and being understood - the beginning development of one of my masks/obsessions? - and now I speak 3 languages. I suppose it is a matter of pushing through to the other side, getting past the ambivalence.
It must be very satisfying to be fluent (native speaker level even) in another language. I would like to experience it in my lifetime but haven't so far.
It's a good song that. Very stirring.
I've been inspired+excited lately to learn this Italian song youtu.be/4CI3lhyNKfo that was shared by Former Member on here recently I think. I've managed to get the hang of the first 2 verses so far. È stato un piacere di conoscerla , I can say that in 5 languages as it's a nice thing to be able to say imo
I have heard this is a good book for learning languages. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Fluent-3-Months-Benny-Lewis/dp/0007543921/ref=sr_1_1?crid=2E26EK3ZJB5KG&keywords=fluent+in+3+months&qid=1700640198&sprefix=fluent+in+%2Caps%2C75&sr=8-1
It is very empowering and very good for the cerebellum. You can start learning whenever you like. I hope you can find the time and impetus to find a language that excites you!