Published on 12, July, 2020
I tried writing this a few times over the past couple days but I was having trouble but thats kind of the point of this post.
I dont talk very often out loud (unless its about my special interest and im with people im comfortable with) but online I can write wayyy more. I usually even annoy people with how much I write when I text/email/etc but the last couple days I keep trying to comment on things on here but I changed my mind and didnt send it. I think I only made 4ish comments and they were pretty short than my usual. I dont know why I cant write right now, its like I dont feel like it, mixed with I cant find the words I want. I was just wondering if anybody else has had this before and if theres a way I can get past it?
I have had episodes of this sort of thing with painting and creative writing. I generally walk away and do something else for a while and the mojo comes back on it's own.
I enjoyed watching a documentary following a famous artist (but I can't remember who it was) who spent weeks on quite a large painting. He (I can't remember their gender now actually) then had an episode where he/she/they got very agitated+worked up resulting in painting over the whole piece with black paint and starting again on that. I liked what they did in the end as well as what they'd originally done before blacking it out. I think it was the same artist who said their life's objective was to recapture/get back to being sort of childlike and being able to channel that into their art i.e. pure playful raw unadulterated I guess.